You.. you make me so happy you know that? From day 1 to day 589 and more. Yes. I counted :)
I think.. no, I know I will love you for the rest of our days. The rest of our lives. And then on of course :)
589 days.. wow.
The time has flown by, really :) it almost feels like just day 2 by the way you look at me every time I actually do get to see you.
The way your beautiful brown eyes light up to see me. The way you seemingly take a breath and your shoulders just relax. The way you wrap your arms around me and your head rests on my shoulder. I love that feeling. I love you. ❤️
You're the love of my life and my future husband.
So, I wanted to write you this letter.
Dear future husband,
I'm sorry for my quirks.
I'm sorry for my past.
I'm sorry for the dirt.
For the things that don't make you laugh.
I'll love you thick and thin.
Blood, sweat, and all of your tears.
I'll love you through the better and worst.
I'll love you through the years.
Sincerely,
Your leaf. 🍃
I know it's not much but I hope you see it like I do Tamaryon. You're truly my soulmate. And I love you so much. And the truth is 589 days of ups and downs won't change that. No matter what has happened. Because we have a lifetime supply of days for each of us that are a clean slate. I'll only look at our ups and keep the downs in mind for learning purposes. And I hope to live with you in laughter and kindness. You've treated me the kindest in truth. And I love you for it. You taught me how to love again. You taught me how to trust again. You taught me how to be happy again. How to escape my depression and my anxiety and my world of dark numbness. You taught me how to feel. You picked up all the dark sharded broken pieces of me, and like god you just closed your hand around them and didn't necessarily just fix them, but made them better. You made me whole.
I love you Tamaryon.
More than anyone in this whole world.
And I miss you more every second.
I can't wait to see you again.
Love always,
Jess 💙
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