Stay calm

9

*You up yet?

Oops Ryan texted me hours ago, I  just woke up.

Yup

*It's about time cx, I made lunch come over.

Let me get dressed

I turn on the shower and take off my clothes. There were scratch marks all over my ribs. Sure enough there was blood under my nails. That happened sometimes, I'd have an episode while sleeping and woke up with scratches and bruises.

Oh well. I wash up and dress quickly putting a little eyeliner on. My hair was a mess as always.

*

"Hey you."

"Hey." Ryan sits me on the couch, coming back with Chinese  takeout.

"I thought you said you made it." I laugh.

"Let's just say I did."

We talk and eat for awhile, I set it down after I was done. "You're a great cook."

"I know right." He sits closer, clearly wanting to cuddle but not knowing if it was ok. I close the gap setting my head on his shoulder. He wraps an arm around my waist nuzzling his face into my neck. I relax and pull away slightly. He rests his forehead against mine, our eyes locked. My eyes close as his lips press against mine. He grabs my hips pulling my onto his lap. My fingers tangle in his hair, he gently tugs one of my lip rings. His hands run up the back of my shirt.

"What's this." His finger runs across one of my scratches.

"I did it in my sleep last night."

"Did you clean them yet?"

"No, its not that bad."

"Baby you have blood under your nails."

He lifts my sweatshirt over my head.

"Damn these tattoos are sick."

"Thanks." I smile shyly.

He uses peroxide which stung.

"All better." He kisses my nose.  "So um.. wanna be my boyfriend?"

I crash my lips to his, "I take that as a yes." He kisses my neck down to my chest. Ooh yeah I dont have a shirt on.

I sigh, this felt so good. He pushes me to a laying position. His fingers massage my hips making it hard to hold back a moan.

I pull his shirt off running my hand over his chest. He unbuttoned my pants and tugs them off then his. There was a growing bulge that I wanted to touch so bad.

I pull his hips to mine and move against him.

"Off?" I beg with my eyes.

We take our boxers off and admire each other.

"You ok with this?" He asks.

I nod, he positions himself inbetween my legs and slowly slides in. I wrap my legs around his waist as he goes faster, loudly moaning when he hits my prostate.

He moans loudly as he cums inside me. I release all over my chest. He pulls out and licks it off.

"Is it to soon to say I love you?"

"Just a little."

*unknown*

Now I'm a little pissed. Not at Ricky, he's just trying to cope and I'm happy that he's not just locking himself up and staring at the walls. Ryan on the other hand made my blood boil. Just cause he got Ricky to have sex with him doesn't mean he loves him.

As much as I want to admire my little raccoon I needed to get out for a few minutes to cool off.