Stay calm

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I walk in on cuteness, Matt was sitting in Mike's lap. They were smiling so they must've made up.

I sit next to them and Matt sits inbetween us.

"Is it ok if Mike stays here?"

"Of course." We smile at each other over Matt's head.

"You remind me of a friend."

"Really? What's his name?"

"Chris."

"Cerruli?"

"Yeah, you know him."

"Well shit, he's my cousin. We haven't seen each other since we were kids."

"Another excuse to go visit." I smile. "That is if you want you."

"That would be great, do you have his number?"

I type it in his phone.

"Thanks."

"Small world."

"Yeah." he laughs.

"So you guys ok now?"

"Yup." Matt kisses his cheek.

I smirk as Ryan limps in, "you sure you wanna do that again?"

"Yeah once I can walk properly."

"I knew you'd let Ricky top." Matt smirks.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"Cause you're such a baby, don't worry Mike is to."

"Nice to know." He sighed as he read a text, "I gotta go and pick up my sister, again."

"You don't like her?" I ask.

"Not really, she's a bitch to me." He kisses my forehead, "I'll be back soon."

I turned back to Mike and Matt, Matt was asleep in his lap.

"Is he still sleeping so much."

"Yeah, he's also been sleep walking. We just got back from the doctor, he has schizophrenia like I do. He got meds but it takes awhile to be effective. Make sure he's never alone, he either has to be with me or you, if for some reason we can't Ryan can be with him since he's able to calm me down I'm sure he can handle Matt."

"That's alot to take in, I'll do my best to take care of him."

"You better, or else I'll have to bite you. I've torn chunks of skin off people before."

His eyes widen, "remind me to never get on your bad side."

"I'll leave you two alone, I'm taking a shower."

*

The water felt like needles on my skin, the pressure of the water laid heavy on my chest. No matter how hard I tried I couldn't get out. Screaming echoed off the walls, is this how its always going to be? Endless screaming.

My hands were to heavy to cover my ears. 

*

How the fuck did I get in the shower. I turn the water off. Did I have another episode? My body kept shaking making it difficult to put on clothes.

Matt and Mike were sleeping so I slipped out and down the street. Shit faced drunk or high as fuck, decisions decisions. Ryan's going to be disappointed but I need to before I freak out.