Stay calm

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Where's Ryan when I need him? Oh yeah I told him to fuck off and stormed out, my bad.

The heavy door slide open, Matt grabbed my hand under the table as a man sat down across from us.

"Mark Thompson?"

"Yes how can I help you." He crossed he arms studying us. Matt squirmed uncomfortably.

I set two pictures down, one of my mom and the other of Matt's.

"You raped these two women right."

He takes a close look, "both ex's of mine, they found out I'd been cheating on them with the other. I wanted one last fuck but they refused, I got her first." He points to my mom's picture. "This other one was harder to track down, took me over a year but I got what I wanted." Never heard that part. "This has to do with you how?"

I look at Matt who didn't look like he'd speak.

"Well these women are now dead."

"I care because?"

"They're our mothers which makes you our biological father."

"Shit, I don't know what to say." He stares at us in disbelief. "Why did you come here?"

"Closure I guess."

"Are you angry with me, cause if you are don't hesitate to start yelling. I deserve it."

"We're angry at you for hurting our mom's. Then again they wouldn't be our mom's if it wasn't for you. It's a very confusing topic."

"Although it didn't come from something good I'm glad to know  I have two sons. You probably aren't glad that I'm your biological father, but that's understandable."

"There's really not much to say. It's a lot to process."

Matt stands up still having a tight grip on my hand. "We should go."

The ride back was silent, mostly because Matt fell asleep. Again.

*

"Devin?"

"I'm right here sweetie."

"Did you see what happened today."

"Yes, it must've been hard for you. But I'm proud of you." I nod in response not having much to say on the subject. "I checked on Ryan."

"How is he?"

"Is it selfish if I want you all to myself?"

"I want you to baby doll. If you were alive this would be so much easier. Ryan doesn't get me like you do. He doesn't have a calming effect on me, he thinks he does but it's all you."

"Do you love him?"

"I don't know."

"Do you love me?"

"Yes."

"It's up to you sweetie."

"I've been messed up since you drowned, then my mom died. I just wanted something to cling to." I sob.

"Sh, it's ok. Just know that I love you and will always be with you. That will never change. Now you need some rest and Matt needs cuddles. He likes to be squished between you and Mike."

"Ok." I say sadly, "good night."

I feel a light brush of cold against my lips. I couldn't see him but I felt him.

I climb into bed with Matt in the middle of me and Mike. Matt has practically wedged himself underneath Mike, at least he could sleep.

*Devin*

It broke my heart to think Ricky might never be happy. If only I hadn't fucking died he would be and so would I. We'd made so many plans together, I felt selfish wanting him to myself. He wanted to be with me but i know he needs one to physically be with him, someone who he can actually touch so I encouraged him to find someone to be able to do that. Now I'm regretting that decision.

He seemed happy with Ryan but he was starting to show his dark side. Ricky definitely had one to, if they clashed it wouldn't be pretty. Rickys very sweet but a flood of anger and aggression was just about to break.

I walk through the door to Ryan's apartment. It was spotless, the only thing that seemed out of place was the mirror I broke.

"What the fuck, answer your damn phone." He's been dialing Rickys number over and over for an hour. Before I left I'd turned Rickys phone off. I'm not trying to create issues but I also have to protect Ricky at all costs. Before it was him taking care of me for the most part but now there's not much I needed to be protected from.

He eventually got irritated and gave up. He grabbed a few things and went to his car. I don't fucking think so, not when you're pissed off like this.

I make all his tires pop and just for good measure and cause I felt like it drained his gas also. I then sat back and watched his little temper tantrum.

"Devin?"

I teleporte back to Ricky, he was sitting in the guest room with Matt sleeping next to him.

"What's wrong cutie."

"The shadows are back."

Sure enough they were circling closer to him. I wrap my arms around him so he wouldn't have to see them. There wasn't much I could do about the screaming and I can't make them disapear. All I could do was keep him calm until it was over.

I stroke his hair until he falls asleep. I kiss his cheek and lay him next to Matt. It was adorable how they instantly cuddled. I liked to watch them for hours like the creep I am.

Sorry for the long wait. I just noticed this was all messed up and parts that were published before weren't anymore which is frustrating. But since I absolutely love studying rocks I decided to fix it during class. Hope you enjoy:)