live Without Love~
Ever since I lost El thing's haven't been the same around here. Thing's feel colder and weird. I cant quite explain how I feel but I know that it hurts, it hurts to look downstairs in the basement or to make myself some waffles. It hurts to think about her because when I do it lasts for days. Lately I have been isolating myself and Lucas and Dustin keep trying to come over but I never want them to. Id rather just have El right here beside me. I miss our conversations and the way id say something and she'd always ask what it meant. I miss the way I was able to look at her and the way that she was able to look at me, whenever she did I could feel this strange sensation in my heart but it always felt right. When I first met her I didn't expect to fall inlove with her infact it was the last thing on my mind but as I really got to know her my heart just became her's. I bet if I were to look at her right now and tell her that I love her she would just look at me and tilt her head to the side and question as to what it meant to love and then I would be blushing and trying to explain it but id be failling miserably. I bet if she were here id be teaching her how to play D&D and we would be making up her character. To live without her feel's like an eternity of dying but I know that she wont be coming back and so I have to move on but it'll take time.
El if you can here me,if your in the upside or wherever you are just know that I miss you. Know that I love you and I just want you to come back home and be safe. I miss hugging you and sometimes cleaning the blood from your nose, I miss your voice and I miss when you'd wake up every morning asking me to make you some ego's. I miss you babygirl....
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To Live Without Love
RomanceI just wish she would come back to me because now that I know her to live without her seems impossible. I just feel so lost and so alone, how does one live without his love?
