I've always been overweight. But I've never been THIS overweight. The heaviest I've ever been was in March (7-8 Months ago). I weighed about 301 lbs. That's one pound more than the baby elephant born in the Chicago zoo at the beginning of the year.
I am a baby elephant.
That line stuck with me for a long time and to this day it still makes me cry when I think about it.
It's October and I weigh roughly 293 lbs. A little better than before but not enough for me to be happy in my own skin. This time last year I weighed roughly 275 lbs.
I gained 30 pounds in 5 months.
That sounds like a lot. And it feels like a lot too. A lot of my clothes don't fit anymore. I have been trying to lose weight for about a year now. And all I have to show for it is 30 extra pounds.
No, I don't exercise everyday. Something is wrong with my brain. I can't seem to motivate myself to do anything anymore. Whenever I decide that I need to lose weight or better myself, I shut myself down. The way you shut down that one creepy dude who always tries to message you even after you've told him no 50 times in one week.
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Dress Size
NonfiksiWhy you should always get the bigger size when buying a bridesmaids dress. Especially when you're overweight to begin with.
