Since the school year began i have passed you in the hallway once a day
But lately i've been taking a different route
A route that either of us could've taken earlier to avoid seeing each other
A route through an air conditioned building rather than the sun lit sidewalk
I figured that the only way i could get over you is by seeing you as little as possible
You joined my club
I'm not sure why but you did
You walked into the teachers class room and stood right next to my seat while waving your hand to get registration papers
So now instead of trying to not see you at all, i have to see you once a week
My friends have told me you might have a girlfriend now
And, of course, they felt the need to show and share this information with me
And i'm so happy that you are happy
But it makes me sad that you're happy without me
I'm drowning
i'm heartbroken, babe
and it's all because of you
But this is what i wanted, right?
You to move on?
yeah
perfect
this is just what i wanted
except it's not
not at all
and now that you have
i'm heartbroken
The second time we stopped talking it was because of me
but that's only because i knew you were only there because you and N were fighting
so i pushed you away
but that's not what i wanted to do
i didn't want to create an even bigger separation between us
i just wanted to see you fight for me
but you gave up so easily
almost like you already had before we tried
the senior's last day
you were so distraught because she was leaving
and when you hugged her i saw you crying
and i cried
because you still loved her instead of me
over the summer
when we had our english class together
we didn't talk for a while
but then you contacted me
giving me hope that you wanted to try again
but i think you only talked to me because you didn't know anyone else
because as soon as the summer class ended
we stopped talking again
and now here we are
still not talking
one of us has moved on
but i haven't
and now
you don't care who knows about you
so you post pictures of her
and i can't help but feel jealous
because you never wanted anyone to know about us
but are willing to share your relationship with her
it's messing with my head
My head is full of "I should've" 's
All of the things that i should've done
The things that might have kept you with me
i think about you twenty-four hours a day
and i really wish i didn't
but i can't stop it
everything around me reminds me of you
you leave everything with open ends
and right now i need a little closure
i just want to talk everything out
tell you everything i've felt
and everything i'm feeling
and i want to ask questions
and admit my mistakes
i just want to stop feeling this way
knowing that you don't feel the same
i hate missing people
especially when it's you
