I️ wish i️ could wipe away the years in middle school
Just have a life that went from fifth grade
to freshman year of high school
I️ just want to forget all of it
Some days
Most days
It doesn't even come across my mind
But on others it feelings like it's eating me alive
Sometimes i️ sit back and am thankful for those years
Because they toughened me up
But sometimes i️ wish they never even happened
Maybe if they never happened i️ would've been better
For my friends
My parents
My grandma
Maybe i could think back and not regret
Not regret how awful i️ truly was while she was alive
Maybe i️ wouldn't have to look down at my thighs and regret the scars that are there
Maybe i️ wouldn't have to work so hard Just to be okay
But then other days i️ love my life so much
When things are good, not perfect, but not just okay either
Because the people who are in my life now
No matter how few
Make my problems worth fighting
But i'm scared that when i️ leave for college
Everything will revert back
