Don't leave me alone// joshler

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"Uh yeah of course it means something to me, this house is where my happy place was found" I smiled.
"Tyler what's bothering you?" Josh paused and flat out said it.
"Nothing I'm fine" I lied
"Tyler I know there's something on your mind, you can tell me you know that right?" He sat me down and put an arm around my shoulder.
"The thing is I always have internal battles to face, and I sound like a wimp. Then on the other corner is you with a solid face and great outlook on life. How the heck do you do it josh?" I really did sound like a wimp.
"Tyler you came from a low point in your life. We all did. I'm still facing mine everyday. Have you ever thought about dying?" He asked.
I waited, glanced around the room, and then nodded.
"Was it that you were feeling bad, or sad, or even mad?" His voice was soothing.
I nodded again.
"I used to have these bad parents. They made me want to choose death over anything else." I realized the things that were coming out of my mouth were so bad the 20th time around.
"Does Brendon know this?" He asked.
"Yeah, I kind of knew him a while back ago, but it wasn't that friendship thing where you meet a kid at the park and instantly become friends. I met Brendon while being locked in a room, and I saw him play outside and have fun, and I was locked in my tower with dragon safeguarding it." My metaphors were cheesy, but it made more sense that way.
"In middle school" he breathed out.
"I was bullied. All the time. Everyday in fact. Maybe because I was gay. Or maybe because I liked wearing long socks that came up to my knees. The thing is everyone made me feel like I didn't belong. So I stayed away for a while. Then one day I was walking past the record store, and I heard this loud music playing. So I walked in. And I looked around. And I felt like I belonged." He told the story with no emotion at all. I was infatuated with the small assuring smile he gave me at the end. 
"Josh I'm sorry you went through that. I think you're amazing the way you are. And I would've liked your long socks" we both chuckled.
"Tyler. Abuse isn't as bad as bullying, maybe it's the same amount of horrible. I just know you won't ever feel like that around me. When you think of dying, come to me, and I'll give you 101 reasons why you should stay alive for me."
I kissed his cheek, and put my head is his lap. We cuddled for a while, and then went back to packing.
This apartment has more meaning now.