FUALKFHK I wrote an enTIRE chapter and it deleted itself im so aNnoyed gotta start all over again uGh.
I sat by her bed, clutching my fists. This is my fault, i said to my self, this is all my fault.
And in a way it was. She was always so busy looking after me she never talked about her own problems. My mother would take drugs, drink and she never talked to me about it because she didnt want to put extra stress on me, she knew that i was already stressed out as it was. And now she was in hospital because of a drug overdose and it was because of me and my stupid fucking problems that arent even the worst. This is all my fault.
"Hey," a voice that slowly was becoming more and more familiar with me said. I turned around,
"Josh!" I said, happy to see him, "thank you for coming, it really means a lot to me"
"Hey thats ok, what are frends for?" I smiled a broken sad smile and he pulled me in for a hug. It didnt take me long to start crying and i cried,oh how I cried. the silent type into his shoulder and he let me. I was just so happy to see him and everything else that was happening was very overwhelming and i had to let it out.
There was a knock on the door.
"Hello, im doctor Iero and i will be helping your mother, is it?"
I nodded, removing myself reluctantly from josh.
"Yes well i will need to do some tests on her and need you to vacate the premises, for a little while. If you have a mobile device we can call you when we are done
"Why cant i stay here- i want to be with her- i need to be here to make sure that she is ok- i need her to be ok," i began to shake, josh grabbed my hand,
"Hey, its going to be ok." Josh said gently, putting his other hand onto my shoulder.
"It is so lovely to see another gay couple that is out!" The doctor said, "my fiance and i struggled for quite some time being, oh you know, affectionate in public you might say. i really do admire your courage."
"Oh we arent-" i began to say but was cut off by josh,
"Times really are changing," he said, kissing me on the cheek. My whole body froze up, his lips were soft and gentle and i had butterflies in my stomach and was blushing intensely, "we should go. Boyfriend." Josh said, winking at me as he lead me out the door.
