Josh and i sat in the park just outside the hospital, he was taking the daisies out of the ground and putting them together to create a flower crown.
He reached across to me and put it on my head,
"Beautiful." He said smiling. I blushed. Again.
I did that a lot when he was near me.
He made a second one putting it on his own head.
"I was wondering, i mean if this isnt too much to ask.." i said, looking up into his eyes,
"yeah?"
"Would i be able to stay at your house? Its just i dont really have any other family, i mean it is fine if you dont have enough room or whatever i can just stay home, but i really think it would be better if i wasnt alone.."
"Of course you can." He said, i hugged him and he hugged me and we stayed there for a little while.
"Do you want to go for a walk?" He asked me, i agreed saying we could stop by mine so i could pick up my things.
It was cloudy that day, looking as though it could rain, but we both knew it wouldnt.
"Tell me about yourself." Josh said, quite randomly,
"Umm ok. Well i- i like to play the ukulele and im learning the bass."
"Oh thats cool! I can play drums and piano, we should play together ive got a bass at mine cos my brother used to play, he has moved out though."
We began talking about bands and it turned out we liked a lot of the same stuff, he liked death cab and radio head and red hot chilli peppers which i found extremely attractive, and i played one of their songs through my phone and he tapped along to it on his thighs and sung the lyrics.
It was adorable.
We reached my house, and went into the kitchen.
"Did you uh, want a drink or something, i think we have some lemonade, or water or something.." i asked him
"Some water would be great." He replied. I got out a glass, filling it up and turning to pass it to him. When he took the glass, our hands touched and our eyes locked. There was a moment that could have lasted forever then in which we just stared at eachother, but it didnt last forever and it was broken when he said thank you, taking the glass to his lips.
"I should go get my stuff. Would you like to join me? Or if you just want to sit on the couch that's cool too," i said
"No its ok ill go with you." He said, following me down the hall to my room. It was messy but not out of control. I grabbed a bag from my cupboard and put in random clothes, then i went into my bathroom grabbing my toothbrush and a picture of my mum i had on the wall, my dad was in it but i had cut him out. I went back into my room, josh sat on the bed.
"Ok. I think i have everything." I said, taking a seat next to him.
"Tyler." He said.
"Yes?"
"Do you like me?"
"Yes josh of course."
"But like, if i said i like, liked you would you freak out?"
My heart fastened
"Josh," i said
"Yes?"
"Can i-can i kiss you?"
He laughed, a soft kind laugh
"Ok" he said, putting one hand on my thigh. This was happening. The most beautiful person i ever saw was on my bed and wanted to kiss me. That was pretty cool.
I leaned in, and put my slightly shaking hand onto his stubbly cheek. Then i pressed my lips to his, and he wrapped his arms around my neck and kissed me back and i was so happy to have him, my body went all warm and soft as he ran his fingers up into my hair and i ran mine down his back, pulling at his shirt. We hadnt known eachother for long but it felt so right, when i first saw him i knew that we had something together. We just worked so perfectly, our hands and hearts interlocked.
He started kissing down my neck,
"Tyler," he said breathing heavily,
"Yes" i replied
"Tyler, can i take off your shirt?"
I laughed a little, pulling my black t-shirt over my head with josh's help.
"You're so beautiful," he said smiling as he ran his hands up my waist, i flinched when he went over my scars and he looked up at me,
"Its going to be ok." He said smiling, i helped him pull off his own shirt and he threw it onto the ground. Then he started kissing my chest, he kissed my scars pulling down my pants and the rest of the night past too quick.
