it's been 9 days since ethan and i both said that we loved each other. i have to say, i wish i didn't. we've enjoyed each other's company a lot but i feel like those three words change it.
i know that sounds completely rude but he thinks that i'm his property again.
"what you thinking about?" i look back at ashley, she decided to live with us from now on. she gave up her apartment and got like $300 000 for it.
"oh nothing really" she gave me that 'i know your lying' face and i gave in. "ethans being really overprotective and it's like i'm his property" tears rose up to my eyes and ashley rushed over and comforted me.
"no need to cry, understand? did something between the two of you?" i nodded and she gestured for me to continue.
"he sorta said he loved me and i said it back, but i don't know if i meant it, is that bad?"
"wow that's big um well i don't really know how to answer to that but look grayson and i have been dating for almost two weeks and all we've said is that we like each other a lot. i can tell ethan that what you said you weren't one hundred percent sure of it?" i took her offer in to consideration and finally figured out an answer.
"i guess so, if that's the easy way then sure go ahead"
just as ashley was about to say something my phone went off.
ethan 👑💛 : hey can i come around in 5?
i showed ashley and she gave me a concerned look. i wasn't really up to seeing ethan today. i was about to text back when i saw another one from him.
ethan 👑💛 : i need to tell you something, it's important x
i quickly sent a text back saying:
of course i'll be in my room
i said goodbye to ashley cause she needed to meet up with an old friend but she'll be back later tonight.
i rushed upstairs and hopped in bed when there was a knock on the door then eventually footsteps coming closer and closer.
then i saw ethans face.
"i'm leaving lia" a shot him a confused look.
"well hello to you too" i sat up and patted the spot next to me, aiming for him to sit and he gladly did. "what do you mean 'your leaving'?"
"tour it starts in two days and new jersey we aren't going to be here for about 7 months we are getting an apartment in LA. i uh i'm gonna miss you"
"when do you leave?" i said well squeezing his hands tight.
"tomorrow night" i shot him a glare and thought quick of something to say.
"long distance" he looked at me weirdly and i continued to speak. "we could try sometimes it works sometimes it doesn't" he nodded slowly and then grabbed my face and gave me a soft light kiss.
"facetime everyday and night, you call me if there is any problems, okay?" i nodded and kissed him again.
"i'm gonna miss you, do you need help packing?"
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i've been helping ethan pack his bag since 10:30 this morning and it is now 3 in the afternoon. i just want to go home and sleep.
"lia you can go home if you want!" i smiled at ethan and packed the last t-shirt into the suitcase.
"no i want to stay" what the hell no i don't, stupid mouth. ethan wrapped his big muscular arms around my small frame and i wanted him to never let go.
times like this is when i don't regret saying those three words but times when he's protective is when i regret it completely.
"ethan? i need to say something" he sat me down next to him on his bed and i started explaining.
"ok look, when we confessed that we loved each other i was lost i feel like i only said it because you said it. i like you a lot ethan but i don't know if i love you. your the best thing that has happened in my life but i'm fifteen years old, i don't know what love is." he slowly nodded his head i think giving me a sign that he understands.
"i get it, i know what you mean but these past few months have been the best months of my life because of you, our small trips to the beaches, picnic dates and so many more things. i just want you to know that i like you a lot as well and i don't know if i love you but i'm certain that asking you to be my girlfriend was the best thing i have ever done" i shot him a small smile and leaned in only to met him halfway.
"we can make this work" i hugged him tightly.
"i promise" he whispered in my ear.
i never want to let go
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