Irresistible [Teen!Prussia X Teen!Reader]

8~ Relief ~

Severly days had passed and I was lonely at school. Gilbert didn't come and I was left alone with my thoughts and worries, a jealous brother and a lot of stuff to study. I couldn't stop thinking of him, of his smile, of his sudden change. I was mad to myself. «It surely is my fault if he doesn't come to school..» I kept thinking; I didn't talk to my brother anymore, just when I had to study german and I needed help with my homework. My mother kept worrying about me and asking if everything was okay, and, of course, I told her that I'm fine and I was just tired because of school. All I wanted to do is lay in my bed, curled up, and forget about everything and everyone.
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8 a.m. I entered my room and saw him: Gibert was there, sitting on the chair close to mine, looking out of the window. I slowly approached my desk and sat down, then looked down, not able to face anyone, especially Gilbert. I wanted to hide, but I immediately flinched at the feeling of someone touching my shoulder, carefully.
I looked up and saw Gilbert, grinning, ready to hug me.
«Oiii~ » He said.
«H-hey...» I answered, not totally convinced of all this happiness of his, afraid I could hurt him again.
His facial expression changed right after he heard my insecure voice, then his mouth slowly opened and he started talking.
«What is it? Are you okay?»
I silently nodded, then looked down again.
Right after that, I felt chills on my whole body and his arms embraced me gently, effectively, warming me up. He held me close to him,hugging me tightly.
«G-Gilbert..w-why are you..» I said, confused.
«You were trembling.»
«H-huh? Was I?»
«Neh, it's just an excuse so I can hug you and make you feel happier.»
So kind. He was so kind.
«Gilbert...c-can I ask you something?»
«Of course, (y/n)» he answered, smiling.
«Did I hurt you? Did I make you sad? Were you uncomfortable when I told you you're weird? I-I..didn't want to..I..»
«H-hey hey, you said one question..» He giggled.
His giggle was really cute, it was so heartwarming seeing him giggle or laugh.
Without even realizing it, tears started to come down from my eyes.
«Y-you're crying?!» he said,surprised.
I touched my cheek and quickly wiped away my tears, then I looked away so I couldn't face him. I hate it when people see me crying. A lot.
«H-hey..(y/n)..»
I shaked my head. «I'm okay» I said.
He stayed there, silent for a couple minutes. Then, he suddenly started talking.
«Yes I was a bit shaken when you said so. But I'm not sad, nor angry. I missed school because I've been, ill.»
I sat there, looking at my desk. «He was..ill?» I thought «He's..not mad...»
«Anyway~ » said, looking at me «you study german with your brother, right?»
«Y-yes..» I answered. That was the only thing I was still talking about to Alex.
«If you want, I can teach you.»
HE. CAN. TEACH. ME.
My mind was full of...void. I could've spent more time with Gilbert. I could've got to know him better, stay with him, laugh with him, be.. friends with him. Yes. I wanted it.
«Are you sure about it?» I told him.
«Yes. I want to know you better, so I'll use it as an excuse! KESESESE~ »
Again. That laugh. Weird...but cute.
«Yes. I want it.» That was definitely the right answer. I could hear one of our classmates saying "Again that laugh..."
Well. I loved his laugh. I loved his kindness... but...was that...love? Sexual attraction? What was that? Did I...like him? No.
«I have to know him better.» I thought «Then,I'll find an answer. But, just then.»
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The school day ended and I went back home. As usual, I didn't even say "Hi" to Alex. I just said I'm home, waved at my mother only, since my dad was at work, and went up to my room. I dropped all my things and layed on my bed, curled up and fell into my world, full of thoughts and questions, just to fall asleep after some time.
I had a dream. My brother was very glad about my new friend Gilbert, in that dream. He was happy about it, he accepted him, he helped me when I had some problems with me. And I was so happy about it too.
I opened my eyes and saw Alex sleeping next to me, looking a little troubled. He was hugging me tightly as if he was afraid to let me go, as if he knew that if he let go of me I would've got hurt.
I tried to get away from his tight embrace, but it just tightened even more and I had nothing to do but wake him up and talk to him. Even if I was mad to him, his hug made me feel better, protected, safe. He was my brother after all, I had to speak with him. I could take care of myself, I was not a kid anymore, I could take my decisions without someone telling me what to do. I shook him but he just kept sleeping, hugging him. I tried to call his name several times, but he did not wake up. I lightly slapped his cheek, hoping he'll finally wake up, but it still happened nothing. There was only one thing left : since he was little, he was ticklish. A lot.
I started tickling his tummy until he moved and woke up, groaning.
I was ready. I would've talked to him.
I could do it.