"Jack - press - the button !" I pant through breaths . He panics and presses the large button near the bed .
Straight away nurses run into my room . The main midwife who'd be delivering my baby checks how far away they were .
She nods her head and looks at me .
"Do you feel ready to start pushing ?" She asks .
"Yes "
I push and push and push and push until the angelic cry fills my ears . I look up at Jack and his eyes are glossy . He looks over at the first baby and breaks down into tears .
"It's a baby girl " he cries .
He kisses my head and lips .
"Just one more baby " he smiles .
"Would you like to hold her ?" The nurse asks Jack .
He nods his head and sits down on the chair next to me . He takes his top off and puts the baby next to his chest . I smile at them and then the urge to push comes again .
"I need to push " I say .
"Let me check "
She nods her head again and I start pushing . This one is a lot more painful . I would've thought the first one was but I thought wrong .
My eyes filled with tears as I gritted my teeth and pushed . I didn't scream I didn't shout . I tried to stay as peaceful and calm as possible . The nurse handed me the gas and air and I took blows from that . Eventually the pain eased but I heard no crying .
The nurse picked up the silent baby and took it to a bed in the corner of the room . All the nurses huddled round the baby whilst I sat there letting my mind run free of all the terrible possibilities .
"Jack what's wrong with our baby " I cry .
The nurse turns round and walks over .
"Your baby isn't breathing "
