Made for You

Epilogue (Mara)

"Take care" Quintin waved goodbye.

I smiled at him then I turned my back. I just sent him to his flight.

I made my way back to my car. While walking in the busy terminal, it's as if I saw my life flashing back. It feels like I am walking on a super slow motion and the memories are spinning around me. It's not hallucinations, but more of my acceptance.

A tear fell. A tear of joy. I am happy where I am right now.

Back on myself twenty years ago, this is not the what I imagined myself would be back then. Twenty years ago, I imagined myself busy being a wonderful wife and a caring mother. I dreamed of being a keeper of a happy house. Where I am hands-on with my children the whole day, in every milestone of their lives, and waiting for six o'clock in the evening for my hard-working husband.

But that's a dream, and this is my reality.

I am not blaming anybody or anything for what happened in my life. And there's no regret in my part. I won't change even a bit of it. I am who I am today because of the scars of my mistakes. A better version of me was born after all the trips and falls I've been through. I learned life in a hard way, but it's worth it.

Never did I believe

In what I couldn't see

Long before I knew

Darling I was made for you

I stopped walking then focused my attention to the group of musicians on a corner.

Took a train downtown

Gave us time to talk about

The things that we could do

Darling I was made for you

Tears after tears fell. I am crying while remembering him.

Any other guy

That made you say goodbye

Must've been a fool

Darling I was made for you

I want to believe that Nylon happened to be my fairy tale.
That he happened to gave me a taste of every girls' dream.

Noon, gusto kong isipin na nangyari si Nylon sa buhay ko para bigyan ako ng prince charming. At binawi s'ya sakin dahil hindi pa talaga s'ya ang para sakin. Na may dadating na mas mamahalin ko at mas mamahalin ako. Na dadating 'yong lalaki na hindi ako iiwan.

But Quintin came and go. Hindi ko naman masisisi si Quintin dahil nasa akin ang lahat ng mali. I gave him reasons to stop loving me. I took him for granted. May mga pagkakamali s'yang nagawa sakin noon pero bawing-bawi na 'yon sa lahat ng nagawa n'ya na mabuti. I've been hard on him but he held onto me and stayed with me even it's easier to give up. I am thankful that he came in my life. That he gave me my most precious gift.
I have my Quilla.