Stalking to Reality - L.H (editing)

Chapter 15: It was nothing

oh my god oh my god

his tight grip, tensioned muscles made me more tense, who is this? I need...I need to break free, save myself.

I stepped on his feet, he groaned but didnt loose his grip and then I elbowed his chest, bit his arm then ran towards the bed, I wanted to scream but I cant, what's happening to me?

I stared at the person who grasped me..my eyes widened

OH NO!

"oh my god!" I exclaimed

"ouch, that hurts!"

"you shouldnt have done that, oh my god, Im sorry, Im sorry"

"it's okay babe, dont worry, great self defense tho"

"LUKE! WHY DID YOU EVEN DO THAT? OH MY GOD I WAS SO SCARED"

"sorry, I just...."

"what?"

"I was suppose to hug you but then I felt like youre about to scream so I covered your mouth, I didnt want Cal and the others to rush up here because of that."

"well, that would be embarrasing"

to be honest, he's right, I wouldve made a scene if he didnt covered my mouth,

"so, you wanted to get hurt instead?" I teased

he chuckled, oh god how it soothes me when he chuckles

"well, I didnt expect you to be that fiesty, I mean, it doesnt show that you know self defense so all of your ninja moves were really unexpected' he admitted

"Im sorry tho, but there are more of that moves" I joked

"I dont want to see more of it, it hurts, haha...and, uhm, apology accepted and Im sorry too,it was a pretty dick move to steal a hug from you...I mean" before he could finish his statement I shushed his lips with my index finger and smiled,

"if you want to hug me, its okay, hug me anywhere, anytime, you dont have to ask, and youre forgiven" I explained, staring at his blue glistening eyes

he leaned his face, is he trying to kiss me? again?

I want to kiss him back but...

I leaned forward waiting for his kiss, I can feel his breathe as he breath next to me, warm breathes released by him, Im really...really...really tempted to kiss him but I CANT!

I cant, we dont have a relationship, call me 'old fashioned' but I dont want to be a girl left by the man she loves on the sidewalk, crying, and hating every single man on Earth.

I dont want this relationship, I mean I want a real relationship, Me and Luke are not even official, I mean, were not yet together. we need to take it slow

"yeah take it slow" my inner me sassed,

I opened my eyes and looked away, Luke stared at me with a confused look.

"are you okay?" he asked

"uhmmmm.." I hesitated to answer, I mean how can I explain this things to him? am I playing hard to get?

"if you play hard to get youre going to end up alone" my inner me sassed me again,

what if my conscience is right? I mean.. what if I want a real relationship but this man I love is not serious and I mean, I might really end up alone?

"hey..Myle?" Luke exclaimed, rubbing my shoulders "am I taking this too fast?" he asked

yes you are, and I dont know how to say it..