Teen Idol [Phanfic]

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i feel numb most of the time, lower i get the higher i'll climb, and i will wonder why i got dark only to shine looking for the golden life. oh, it's a reasonable sacrifice

dan

dan had found it more strenuous than usual to fall asleep. his thoughts were cluttered with phil. he wondered what his family was like, did he have any friends? so many questions thought a few ambiguities came to mind when he thought about phil liking him back.

they were supposed to be soulmates, so obviously he would like him back. . . .right?

dan shook away the thoughts as he hurried to school the next day, excitement coursing through him like the blood in his veins. maybe he could catch him before school and talk to him!

he stopped when he saw phil, sitting by himself in the grass. he had bruises on his face. did he get into a fight?

dan made his way over, carefully; as if he was making his way towards a hostile beast that might pounce at any given second.

"a-are you okay?" dan asked, looking at phil in concern. he crouched down in front of him. phil looked up, jet black bangs falling into his face.

"what?" his brows were furrowed, he looked angry. he always looked angry.

"your face. it's b-bruised. are you o-okay?" dan pointed to his cheek, his hand was close to touching it.

"it's nothing." phil shrugged, eyes darting to his hand.

"oh. uh, i'm dan by the way." he returned his hand to his side, looking down at the ground.

"and i care why exactly?" phil snarled, lip curling up in annoyance. was dan really that bothersome? he was just trying to help and ask if he was okay.

"i just. . .never mind. you're right, why should you care?" he stood up and walked away, shoving his hands into the pockets of his pink and white letterman jacket.

phil

"wait, dan-" phil called yet it was quiet. he didn't really want dan to turn around. but then again, he did. he wanted him to come back and care about what happened to his face. why did he feel like that? he had never felt like this before with anyone. it was unusual.

he sighed and watched dan disappear into the crowd, bright jacket being swallowed up by the immense amount of teenagers.

his shoulders sagged a little as he sat there, wondering if he would even get up and try today. something told him he should. something told him to even apologize to dan. he could already feel the emotions trying to weave their way through the cracks and make their way back into his mind.

they wanted to be used again but he refused. he shoved them back where they came from. locked them back up the best he could, hoping the cracks wouldn't open wider. that they wouldn't become crevasses. that the feelings wouldn't come leaking out like floodwaters through a dam after a mighty hurricane.

phil let out another sigh, feeling a morsel of himself try to piece back together. a meager effort at best.

all he could think about is that someone actually cared enough to ask if he was okay and phil had swatted them away like a bothersome mosquito. setting them aloof.

he had always done that and he couldn't seem to stop. but if he let dan grow close to him, he risked exposing the secrets he was desperate to hide. he risked learning things about himself that he didn't want to learn.

a/n;;

this one is a little short cause i didn't have much time to update, i'll try to make tomorrows update a little longer! i'm really getting into the flow of things, writing a chapter everyday!

also! i just realized, we are at 100 reads already! holy moly guys that is great! thank you so much!

song;; numb by marina and the diamonds

word count;; 596 words