Flames {phan au}

*please believe pt. 1*

Phil:

[Don't make promises you cant keep Phil]

Dan's statement is breaking my heart. I can hear it shattering, piece by piece. Every word he said. I want him to believe me. I want him to open up the door so I can pull him into a tight hug and never let go. But this barrier of a locked door is blocking his from my grasp.

"Dan..please.." I began. I was pleading to him at this point, along with tears crawling down my cheeks from my eyes. "Dan I'm begging you..please open the door. I wanna talk to you..we can talk about this. Or you can write and I'll read..pl.please Dan." I rested my forehead on the door. My hands still in a tight fist resting on the doors wooden frame. I start to cry harder. But I stay silent. I hear another piece of paper slide underneath the door.

[The doors unlocked now]

As soon as I finished with the sentence I turned the doorknob carefully. I peaked my head in first. I looked toward my window and saw Dan sitting there with his knees up to his chest, facing away from me and out the window. I  walked in completely, closing the door behind me. I slowly made my way over to him, I rested my hand on his shoulder. He flinched and scooted away. I sat down next to him without a word. I scooted closer to him, he flinched again.

"Don't be scared Dan, I'm not gonna hurt you." I made sure to speak softly, I didn't want to startle him. He seems sensitive at this moment. Dan has the notebook in his lap. I didn't notice, he begins writing down something. He rips it out and gives it to me.

[Yes you will, just like he does]

Dan, will you stop pulling at my heartstrings. Everything your writing makes me angry. I'm not going to hurt him, why does he keep saying that I will. Do I resemble his father is some way? From what Dan described his father to be, I would find it offensive if he did.

"Why do you think this Dan? Why do you think I'm going to hurt you? I want to protect you, and only protect you." He started writing again.

[Want me to be honest about this Phil]

This was a no-brainer. All I want is him to be honest, he probably thinks the same about me as well.

"Of course." I answered back. Giving him a nod as a signal to continue writing. He picked up this signal and began writing words down quickly. For once he actually had a lot to say.

[I cant trust people Phil. Everyone who I begin to start trusting, leaves me. Either by choice, or as the universes cruel joke to make my life a living hell. My mum was the only person I could trust with all my heart. Sure, I had Peej and my brother. But my brother was like 8 and Peej was oblivious. My father was abusive at the time, but not as bad. She died. I had nobody. My father was acting like a normal person for about a month, which was refreshing. Getting to wake up and feel normal, like a semi-normal family for a change. I actually started trusting my dad again. As soon as I started putting my trust in him again, he went back to his old ways. I was mourning my mum before, but now she was everything I thought about. I had even reached a stage of depression, which I'm still getting out of. Three years later and it's gotten worse. Three years ago I vowed never to trust or put faith in anyone ever again.]

After I finished reading this note, as if on cue, he handed me part two.

[Unintentional rhyme]

[Which I have stuck too. But then I met you. You were...different. Your the person who pushes until I spill out my emotions through tears. Then you comfort me. You were/are loving. Caring. Considerate. And you didn't even know me or know who I was. But every time I looked into your eyes I always saw/see something I don't have.......

To be continued

A/N: Dundundun cliffhanger is back. Soz, I'm tired and needed to post and after I typed 'have' my brain melted so yeah. I'll be back tomorrow.
~M