1) my needs. I feel there's no reason to take care of myself anymore. There's no need to brush my hair or hide dark circles under my eyes.
2) my thoughts. I've felt that if I ignore my emotions maybe everything will just fade away.
3) I've tried to avoid my friends. Dragging them down with me is only making them worse.
4) Riley. I know they don't read this but... I avoid them so one day, when I do go they won't miss me.
5) Lily. I've decided to text her only if I needed to. I don't want to go to her for support. I don't want to drag her further in with me.
6) my sanity. I've been seeing figures. Tall black ones that suddenly have my face. Each one of them dying a different way then the other. There are voices telling me I'm not worth it either. Not worth anything.
And I know they're right.
