Halsey - Drive
"Your laugh echoes down the hallway
Carves into my hollow chest,
Spreads over the emptiness
It's bliss"
•••
I drove all night. I just drove. I was careless. When I least expected it, I finally saw the lights of Missouri city glimmering in the distance.
The road had taken me to the boy who caused all this trouble.
I was on my own, I let my partner down. I could never look into his eyes ever again. This was my fight, and I was ready to give all I had to make it count.
I had 23 missed calls of Linden, many from the fellow police men and women, but none of Holder.
I had finally lost him. I left him. I was the one who gave up on what we had.
I took deep breaths, I knew this would be the final chapter of this case. The chapter where the good victories over the bad.
The moment when the happy end takes place. But this case will have no happy end.
_______
"So you've seen him? Where?" I asked the waitress at the diner "he was here, last night. He seemed troubled. Confused, you know. He ordered a coffee and sat there the whole night writing."
"What did he write?" I asked
The waitress shook her head "no idea, but it seemed important to him."
"Thank you for your time." I faked a smile and left the diner opening the umbrella to protect myself from the rain falling from the sky
I shouldn't have come here all by myself, I kept thinking of Holder's words. What if he was tricking us? What if he was planning something? This was my case, so I had to take the full response for it.
I couldn't blame Holder or Linden for it if I'd mess up. I came so far, we came so far. I walked through the streets when my phone rang.
It was Linden. I was going to ignore her, until I realised that she had no damn idea where I was. After I let her and Holder down like this, she at least deserved an explanation.
I picked up "Davidson."
"Are you okay? Where are you? Please come here, it's not safe for you to be alone. Jane. Do you hear me?" Linden sounded desperate, in worry
"It doesn't matter where I am. I'm gonna take Montgomery down. I started this, so I must end this. I don't want you neither Holder here. I'll rule that."
"Jane, It's not safe. We'll send units just please, tell us where you are. Please take care. You can't do this yourself, we're a team Davidson. And teams stick together."
I hang up. I didn't want Linden or Holder here. They can't be threatened.
The night was about to break in and I felt more and more uncomfortable and scared to be in this city. Alone.
Fear isn't something a cop should feel. I shouldn't be afraid of a 18 year old boy with mommy issues.
