This Boy; My life as Ftm Transgender[discontinued]

[1] How it started

Looking back at memories after I came out, there were so many signs of me being trans.

For example, I loved (and still do) sports, I used to say "being a girl sucks" or "I hate being a girl", I hated the fact that I had to start wearing bras.
Like, hattteee

There are so many more too.

I stopped wearing dresses and skirts, you know, the stereotypical "girly" things, Around the age of 8. I realised then how uncomfortable they made me feel and how dysphoric felt to wear them. So, I just causally started wearing shorts and pants and T-shirts. I also had superrr long hair. I didn't really think much of it at the time but trust me, I started to.

This was basically during elementary school and during that time, you don't really think of what you say so I would go home and be all like "being a girl sucks" etc. I said this because of the dysphoria (of course I didn't know what that was yet), being on the girls team (which NONE OF THEM new how to kick a damn ball), and I hated how sensitive the girls were. No offense but come on y'all grOW A PAIR (Not saying all girls are like this, just how some of them at my school were).

But anyways back on topic.

Then middle school came. Yup, middle school. And that's where the fun begins *cough* sarcasm *cough*.

So once 6th grade, middle school, started, that's when a lot of "thinking" happened. And, I started not really caring how I looked sometimes. I would wear hoodies almost everyday (even in freakin  SUMMER because of the dysphoria) and pants and t-shirts. I started to feel the dysphoria even more than elementary school. Mainly because of how everyone says "middle school, everyone judges you blah blah blah" so I was extremely uncomfortable. So, I started thinking (never a good sign for me XD jkjk) and realised 'man, I feel like a man'. Alright I didn't Actually say that it was more like 'man, I don't feel right... It's like... I feel like... A boy..?'

Of course I didn't know anything about lgbtq+ yet, so with my curious mind I decided to to online and see what it was I felt.

And them BOOSH!! Everything fell into place.

Transgender. Transgender, me. Me, transgender.

Of course, I looked at gender fluid, agender, gender queer and all that. But transgender really related to me more. Its funny cause I actually thought I was agender for like 2 weeks then I was like nah, tranny bish.

At that point everything was settled except for one thing.

What the hell am I suppose to say to everyone.

Obviously I can't just walk up to the and be like "yo dad, I'm a boy, deal with it". If only it was that easy...

So I ended up keeping it bottled inside for the next whole year and lemme tell you somethin, NEVER DO IIITTTTT! Don't keep it bottled inside because for me when I did that, my life got so hard and no one knew what was wrong with me. This goes with anyone in the lgbtq+ community. Not telling anyone will eat you alive until you can't take it anymore.

And that's what happened to me.