This Boy; My life as Ftm Transgender[discontinued]

[4] Dysphoria and shishcabob

I freakin HAAATTEEE dysphoria.

Like wtf mind and wtf body.

I'm not even exagerating .

Have you seen those ftm shorfilms on YouTube and they are looking in the mirror moving their shoulders and stuff to make it seem masculine or sucking in their chest? I'm not kidding I do that and did before I even new people did that.

I could have sworn that I was the only one that did that.

I do that alllllll the time and always catch myself doing it. I even like hold my arm up and look at my nonexistent muscles. I do this whenever I get dressed in the morning and I hate it so much but I can't help it, I do it subconsciously. I really wish I had a flippin binder but noo I don't have one and I don't think I'd be able to buy one without my dad noticing.

Like, I try making binders out of safe materials but they never work. Well, maybe some of them but tbh they aren't affective of how I personally want them to be. I need one so baaaddd. Maybe one day I'll get one and send it to my friends address so it would be easier!!! IM SO SMART I CAME UP WITH THE IDEA LEGIT RN LIKE IM SO STUPID HOW DID I NOT THINK OF THIS FHDJOIJWHDKWJBFUWMAMJDOQ.

IM SO GONNA GET ONE BUt not rn bc I'm way too lazy.

Just some advice that I'm SURE you guys know but I'm gonna repeat unless someone doesn't know.

1. I SWEAR TO JESUS SIR DO NOT WEAR ACE BANDAGES THEY ARE BAD FOR UR HEALTH AND CAN BREAK YOU LUNGS AND BRUISE THEM BC THEY ARE MADE TO GET TIGHTER AS THE DAY GOES BY THATS BAAAADDDD BRO. Alright I'm okay now XD

NO IM NOT ALSO DONT USE DUCT TAPE THATS EVEN WORSE DOOOONNTTTT EVEN THINK ABOUT BOI now I'm done

2. A good place to get binders are from gc2b.com and other ftm binder sources. Don't get one from amazon and stuff like that because those are not very safe because the aren't real binder websites.

3. Don't wear you binder more than 8 hours do to the compression. And don't wear them while your SLEEPING because you breath differently when you sleep and if you wear it to sleep you won't breath properly.

And the girls clothing the girls clothing omg I'm dying I can do iiiitttt. I need some guys clothes the girls clothes are getting on my nerves recently and I just can't bro.

And my haaaiirrr my haaiirr its also getting on my neeerrvveeess. I want a haircut so baaaddd!! I asked my dad and he was like "We'll see" like ALWAYS HE SAYS THAT. So ya sorry for the rant XD

But the rant made me feel better so screw it I'm a robot now that was a teRRIBLE JOKE OKAY BYE