sick | jihope

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jimin  ↴ ☆*:.｡. .｡.:*☆

my hands felt sweaty. he left. i'm once again alone. i tossed and turned in my bed. glancing over to hoseok's side of the room, my heart felt empty. there was no happiness to fill it up, for it was reserved for hoseok and hoseok only.

i decided that i couldn't sleep so i got out of my room. all my regrets weighed me down every step. i felt so trapped and miserable, i could barely breathe. damn panic attacks.

i went over to the small phone center, where paitents would make calls to their loved ones. my hands trembled as they hovered over the dial pad. hoseok's number was the only number that i remembered. dialing the digits in, i held the phone to my ear.

it went straight to voicemail.

the beeping stopped, recording the silence. i let out a shaky breath before saying,

"p-please come back. i miss you so much-"

i took in a deep breath. my voice was barely audible. i cursed myself for not being able to communicate properly.

"why did y-you leave me? you know that i n-need you. i can't live without you."

i hiccuped in between every word i spoke, for now i was crying harshly.

"i love you."