Midnight memories (One Directional Mix)

Chapter 1

Perrie Pov:

"Jes! I don't want to go!" I loudly complain while Jesy dragged me down from my bed.

"Come' on. Don't be a silly! Everyone will come on our party. Are you not happy about our success with our newest album?! hell, we are on top 1 around Uk!" Jesy complained like my mom.

"Ok! Ok! I know that already. But I don't feel like going out. I'm exhausted. I want more sleep ", I complained still lying on my bed, pillow wrapped around my head.

Actually, I'm nervous. I don't want to receive any hate messages due to our latest song "shout out to my ex". Every fan of zayn, yah.. my ex-fiance'/ boyfriend, who had been my first love, my very first love. Oh my, it's been quite awhile. Time helped me heal...but not totally. I'm over with sadness, but not the emptiness I am feeling inside. I know he's happy now with his hot model girlfriend. And me? Of course, a single maiden to be.

"Hey! Come on. Get your lazy ass up.", Jesy snapped be back at reality.

"Ok. Ok. I'm coming!", I surrender myself as I get up from my bed and start to fix it first before going to bathroom.

I choose to wear black sweatpants and pink tank top with black blazer on. I do my light make up and put my brown boots. I really don't feel to be glamorous tonight. It's just that, it makes my feeling gloomy. Everyone keep telling that I am already happy because they always see my smile through the photograph they're taking but not the picture beyond it.

I went down and meet Jesy at the living room.

"I'm ready. Let's go", I informed her. She put her phone on her bag and went straight to the door. Glad, that she didn't bother to complain about my outfit tonight. It so seems effortless, I know.
Jesy and I, ride on her car. As she tells me, Leigh and Jade went straight ahead to the party and it's nearly 8 pm now. Perhaps the party is on it's way to start.

She parked her car on the empty space. The party is full. I'm feeling more nervous now as we hopped out from the car.

"Relax girl!, It's just a party for us.", Jesy told me as she patted my shoulder.

"Jes, what if there's a lot of reporter or papparazzi inside. I don't know what to tell them. I keep reading people statuses and tweets about me giving shade about Z--zayn..you know, our song? They keep telling that it's all about him in the first place.", I finally blurted out.

"Oh. Pez! It's that the reason why you don't wanna go? It's been a year already. Just smile and no need to answer their stupid questions.  come on.", she said.

I shrugged and went on. I deeply breath in and out as Jesy open the door for us. The music is so loud, our song is playing. Everyone there are having there nice get up and having a good time drinking and chatting. I put my wide smile on so no one will notice my hesitations and what's going on my mind.

People saw us and started to greet us with warm smile and congratulations. We say our thank yous and walked over where Jade and Leigh Anne's sitting.

"Hey girls", we kissed each other cheeks and started to converse.

"See, Pez. There's nothing or no one here to ruin your evening. So just relax and calm down. It's our party for christ's sake." Jesy reminded me again where Jade and Leigh heard it and they started to ask about it.
Jesy as usual is the one who speaks for  me.

"Aww pez. It's okay! Don't feel bad about the song. Remember, all of us had gotten an ex-boyfriend! You are not the only one dealing about this rumors and issues they putting up.", JAde said.

And yes, she's so damn right. Not everything is all about Zayn. And we have our separate lives now. And I must not be feeling bad about it. It's all done. I'm through with it. Moving on. Right?