I miss you all, i miss what you meant to me. I miss the smiles in the hallway, the subtle jokes that led to universes of inside jokes. I miss the way some of you would hold me when i started to shake. I miss the constant support.
My own army of encouragement to prove i meant something.
God i miss the whispers we all shared. I miss the lack of backward glances because we all stood, sat, and lived in a circle of trust. I miss the smiles i fell asleep carrying. I miss the bond we all shared. I miss the warmth that filled my heart after an eternity of ice.
I miss you all, i miss what you could do to me. You made me smile while I cried. I didnt know that was an emotion, you made me laugh while i shouted in utter glee, god it was ecstasy. I felt so much it was beautiful agony. I cried as you did, i felt what you did, you jumped and I would leap with everything i had. Id have followed you all into hell if it tickled your fancy without a hint of hesitation.
I loved you every one of you and
And your gone
But your memory stays
I dont know if thats good or bad yet, im still waiting
Waiting
-M.M
YOU ARE READING
Silent as my screams
PoetryThings I could never say, thoughts I have on my depression and anxiety, and descriptions of fucked up life events. Over all a clusterfuck of fuck this that and the way i feel. Not angry, well not completely anyway, mostly just bitter self-loathing...
