Half a Heart

Chapter 13

Authors Note

K, so this is kinda an odd chapter that I've written & I'm saying sorry now before you read this and go... Steffi what the flip? I haven't been feeling great so I'm sorry if this chapter isn't so great and yeah.. Next one I swear will be better :(
Xx
-Steffi

Steffi Point of View

I find myself bringing my hands to Cameron's cheeks, cupping his face while I kiss back almost immediately, feeling engulfed in a mix of passion and lust right away.

I feel his body press against mine, causing my back to press against the window as he holds me gently. I try not to have a sudden heart attack as he hungrily kisses my lips, not being able to help but do the same- not wanting either of us to break away at the moment or any time soon.

I move my hands from his cheeks to the back of his neck, pulling him down to me more as I get on my tip toes, wanting more of the taste of his lips on mine if even possible. I feel his hands travel down my sides to my waist, this time him pulling me to his body instead of the window so I'm pressed against him as we stand.

I kiss him back again once more before I break away, gasping for air from the numbing kiss we just shared. He breathes heavily as he looks to me quickly, with slightly widened, surprised eyes, "You aren't.. feeling upset at all?" He questions as he breathes heavily, eyeing me questionably as if something sketchy was going on.

I breathe in, "Well.." I tilt my head, "I did just kiss you back.. did I not?" I breathe out shakily, honestly wanting him to answer the question due to suddenly feeling dizzy, yet warm at the same time.

I did just kiss him back- right? We both just kissed and this isn't some type of dream I'm having for some reason?

A small smile appears on his lips, "I've kinda been wanting to do that for awhile now. I'm not going to lie to you.." He smiles as he steps back from me, only to hit the edge of the bed, making him fall onto it.

He catches himself and sits at the edge of the bed, glancing to me nervously knowing I just watched him nearly fall. I glance to the floor quickly, feeling a smile try to make its way to my lips, "Honestly?" I say as I walk towards him, feeling the words catch in my throat. I stop in front of him, making him look up at me as I look down at him, "Me too." I say before leaning down and connecting our lips again.

He kisses me back not a moment later, engulfing me in that warm feeling again. I smile through our flavorful kiss before I feel myself falling from leaning too far over him, bringing me and him both down flat onto the duvet covers. I try not to let out a small squeal as we hit the bed. He chuckles beside me as I try looking anywhere other than at him, knowing that I'd just turn bright red if I were to do so. I let out a small giggle at my falling as I feel myself turn red anyways.

Thank god the room is still dark

I look to him beside me, making what seems to be my breathing stop. I keep my eyes on his brown orbs, suddenly feeling terrified -yet also feeling excitement. Feeling terrified, because I know I'm either not going to remember this tomorrow- or I could remember it. And if I do, I fear the outcome of all of.. this.

And.. I can't help but feel excited, because the outcome might turnout lovely and better than what I'm thinking it could be. But I'm terrified to ever let myself fall in love again- every time I've tried or whenever I have fallen, it always ends badly- no matter what the circumstance. If I do fall for Cameron and he does the same.. I'm terrified that our ending won't be as amazing as we'd both hoped. I'm terrified one of us will get hurt- whether it be someone else interfering to destroy us, or us destroying ourselves.