My heart stopped right when I realized that I just told her how I felt. Not completely but just enough for her to question it. Why did I have to confess my undying feelings for her? Wasn't it enough to know how I felt without her knowing?
The look on her face screamed that she was so unsure of what was being revealed. Though in the back of my mind all I could think about was that she looked adorable. She looked so adorable that I wanted to kiss her with so much passion. But I knew I couldn't.
I couldn't kiss her because what if she pushed me away? Or smacked me or did something that made it seem like she didn't care about my feelings for her. Then how would I react to that. Of course my heart would be completely broken into thousands of pieces but that isn't the point.. Well at least to me it isn't. I hope.
Within me all I could think about was what is she going to say to what I have just told her. How is she going to feel about it all?
"Jonathan?" she started. "I.. I can't believe you feeling that way when I feel completely.."
I couldn't take her next words. "Stop. Okay. I understand. Just be careful and try not to hurt yourself anymore."
Knowing the tears that were forming in my eyes were giving away the pain that I began to feel the moment she started talking, I walked away.
Never in my life did I believe that I would begin to have so many strong feelings for a girl that I barely know. I already did that once and I didn't need to do it again. It's bad enough when I have flash backs to when it was me and my first love.
I'm not going to get hurt again, that's all I kept telling myself as I walked away from the girl that visited my dreams every night.
Sorry this chapter was so short.. I just can't wait for the chapters to come.. I hope you guys like it.. :)
