the heartbreaker

↠ dearnumber9

dear number 9,

i was convinced college would be different.

i thought it would be much, much harder to find a girl and break their heart.

but turns out, it wasn't.

i guess you must be confused. this letter begins with 'dear number 9.' and as we met at our college, the massachusetts institute of technology, you are oblivious as to my history.

starting mid-seventh gradel, i turned into a designated heartbreaker. from then till my senior year, i broke the hearts of 8 girls.

you are number 9, the first girl whose heart i broke while at college.

i didn't think my trail of broken hearts would last through college, considering the intelligence that all the girls at mit must hold - i mean, it is mit - but, you convinced me otherwise.

so far, you are the last girl on this list.

i wonder how long it will stay that way.

i mean, maybe you will be the last girl on this list. maybe 9 girls will be the cap for my heartbreaks.

that may very well be the case. and i am okay with that.

maybe i will redeem myself before my college career is over. maybe all the girls whose hearts i've broken will see a redeemed man go through mit.

although with my luck, i will never get redemption, that is a thing i can hope for.

maybe you will be the only girl whose heart i've broken at college, leaving the 8 i broke at high school behind.

maybe.

let's hope that is the case.

because it is much harder to warn people about heartbreaker at a college of over 11,000 people than it is at a high school of around 2,000.

so maybe you will not have to warn people.

maybe my trail of broken hearts will end with you.

maybe it will end with the girl who had no choice but to sit next to me in a lecture, then came up to me at a party.

maybe it will end with the one month relationship that started with a hookup at a party and ended with another one.

i do hope for that, because i have messed up a lot of people's lives. i have built a reputation for myself, and it's not a good one.

you see, college was supposed to be a fresh start for me. people weren't supposed to know my reputation as a designated heartbreaker, so i could build myself into someone i wanted to be rather than who i was.

but, as you most definitely know, that did not happen.

it seems that i was just no match to my worse nature.

i am not sure if anyone is- or, i may just be a bad person who was done to many bad things to be redeemed.

we'll never know.

but number 9, i do hope you do not completely hate me, as we do have to deal with each other in college for the next 3 years or so- let's just hope we do not go to the same place to receive our doctorates.

from,

a college heartbreaker