mystic messenger one shots

zen-coma

I walked down the bright white hallways, trying to find the right room. it was like a maze, you could get lost so easily. it didn't help that my vision was blurry from tears threatening to fall. i turned the corner and entered the room.

he was beautiful, but it hurt to look at him. I couldn't stand to see the man I loved like this. in pain. lifeless.

i told him not to go out. he had one too many drinks, and wanted to go for a ride on his bike to get cigarettes. even though i don't like the idea of him smoking, i offered to get them for him. he wouldn't let me.

i should have tried harder to stop him. he wouldn't be here if i stopped him...

seeing him in those casts were enough to bring me over the edge. salt water started pouring out of my eyes, and i could barely talk.

"...zenny?" i choked out, walking towards him. i sat down in the seat next to the bed and hesitantly grabbed his hand. i heard steady breathing under the mask that he was forced to wear. "baby..." i said, trying to see if he would respond.

i knew he couldn't respond.

memories from the night before flooded my mind. the smell of alcohol burning my nose. the headache after our argument....

our last conversation was an argument. i didn't even say i love you, and i didn't think he would have even said it back.

now i sit here, in this uncomfortable hospital chair, sobbing. they didn't even know if he would wake up.

i brought his hand up to my mouth, and kissed it. "baby, i'm so sorry. i love you so much. i'm so sorry." i repeated over and over again.

i knew that if he ever woke up, he would never forgive himself.

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oki hii i know this is short and it ended kinda weird lol i'm sorry.

i've been trying to write happier one shots but for some reason they never turn out good and i guess i'm just better and writing angsty type things lol

please request zen ideas!! thank you for reading, and i'll have chapters up soon.

-isabelle💗