I wake up in the tree house. My wrists no longer bleeding. I cleaned them last night and put my bracelets on. I hear someone climbing up the ladder. I clench my knife in my hand and just as the door opens and Liams head pops in I throw the small pocket knife and it dashes right by his head and hits the wall. He looks at me surprised. Hey! I could'would've easily killed him but Uncle Si said not to. He stares at me in astonishment
"Didn't I tell you specifically to leave me the fuck alone!!!?" I scream the last part so he kinda jumps but he crawls inside. I don't know why he's crawling. The tree house itself is like a mansion. He realizes this and stands up.
"I know what you said last night but I just can't leave you alone. Si told me everything last night. I feel as if 50 gallons of adrenaline have just been injected into me.
"YOU DON'T CALL HIM SI! I DO HE IS MY UNCLE!" He stands there.
"I know but that's what we call him.." I clench my fists.
"HE IS MY UNCLE! BECAUSE OF YOU HE SPENDS ALL DAY AWAY FROM HOME AND LEAVES ME BEHIND TO SPEND TIME WITH YOU WHEN HE SHOULD BE SPENDING TIME WITH ME!!!" He looks at me carefully but very afraid.
"I'm sorry...I'm sorry you don't get to see him often...And I'm sorry its my fault" and that right there pushes me over the edge
"DON'T COME TO ME WITH THAT SORRY SHIT! I DONT NEED YOUR SORROW!" I scream and run towards him. I grab his shirt and he pushes me gently. I try bringing him to the floor but he is stronger. I take steps back and charge again. He catches me and holds me. I fight and scream.
"FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU ALL! I HOPE YOU GET RUN OVER BY A BUS AND DIE A SLOW PAINFUL DEATH YOU FUCKING BASTARD! I HATE YOU LET ME GO YOU INCOMPETENT ASSHOLE! YOU HEARTLESS MONSTER! YOU WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT! LET ME GO NOW!!!!" His face is flooded with pain but I could care less.
"Shhh. Calm down please! Your going to wake everybody" he says holding me tight.
"NO I WILL NOT CALM DOWN! I WILL NOT SIT HERE AND TAKE ALL THIS BULLSHIT FROM YOU! I HATE YOU! YOU ALONG WITH THOSE OTHER 5 ABOMINATIONS! YOU ARE TAKING THE ONLY HAPPINESS I HAVE IN LIFE! ITS EASY FOR YOU TO SAY 'CALM DOWN' BECAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE ALONE! TO BE ON YOUR OWN! YOU HAVE A MOTHER AND A FATHER TO WAKE UP TO EVERY DAY! YOU HAVE A FAMILY THAT GIVES TWO SHITS! SO DON'T YOU COME BARGING IN HERE AND TELLING ME TO CALM DOWN! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I hate you..." My voice grows silent and I burst into tears. I am now puddy in his arms. A vulnerable child held in strong protecting arms with his caring eyes seeping into mine speaking their kind and silent language saying
'Shhh it's ok now' He looks at me and brushes the hair from my face cupping it behind my ear
"I can't imagine how hard your life is, and I know it seems like we are taking your uncle from you, but we are not. I know you find it easier to blame us for your pain shielding yourself with hate. I know you want to just...make us disappear but I promise you...I may not know you, but I promise you I would never try to hurt you"
I am crying harder than I intend to. "You don't understand!...I never thought I would just wake up one day and my parents would no longer be there!...My mum told me...she said "Jade. Don't ever let me get in the way of anything.
*her sweet smooth voice takes over*
never change love. Don't put up walls that are to hard to tear down. One day that special boy will come and those walls will keep you from being happy. So just let him love you.
*Jades voice returns*
"Her, uncle Si, and my dad are the only thing that I had...now I have none." I lean into his neck crying.
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Poison
Dragoste"You dont understand. You need to stay away, I am poison." "I rather die right now than to see you like this" He spoke in a demanding yet afraid tone. I look down and saw him holding my arms, exposing every mistake. Every scar.
