Toxic Love (Lcs FF)

Chapter 17: Sorry Doublelift & Dad..

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR! (EVEN IF I'M LATE) LET'S HOPE WE ALL GET CHALLENGER AND GET A HOT PRO GAMER BF!

Just kidding I just want a life. Feelsbadman:(

I'm sorry for the chapter:)

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After the Fan meeting we went back to our car. On our way we met TSM again. I had my earphones in and suddenly Josh poked me. I took them out and looked at him. "I don't know what happened I mean Ferenica is still bad and I feel so bad losing to such a bad team." That's what Doublelift said. Josh and Me walked behind our team and behind us TSM. I turned around and stood in front of Doublelift and Biofrost. Biofrost just looked at me with a shocked face. "You know, at least I don't talk trash before I loose. And I don't know how you want to know that I am bad, but if you feel to say stuff like that. Feel free to do it." I said and was getting a bit angry. I raised one eyebrow and looked at Doublelift. I saw that Søren walked to us and he looked like he heard everything. Doublelift stood there still and looked at the ground. "Ah so if someone says something back to you, you're scared or what. Have fun trash talking." I looked at Søren and formed with my lips 'Sorry'. I turned around and Josh was still by my side. As we were walking I turned around and saw TSM still staying there. "Ey," I shouted and TSM looked at me, "Next time you call my team bad you should think about your own. FreeSM" The last part I shouted. I turned around and walked with Josh to our team. "What was that?" Loco asked me. "Doublelift trash talked me and my team so I trash talked him." I answered and got I to the car. I said next to the window and Josh next to me. Sam said in the 2nd row so we had the 3rd for us. He took one of my earphones out and I looked at him. "That's one more reason I like You." He whispered in my ear. I smiled and he took my hand. I leaned on his shoulder and slept the rest of the drive.

As we arrived at the house I went upstairs to change I to comfy clothes. I went back down grabbed something eat and sat before my desk. I took out my phone and tweeted 'Today was a great day. I said something I always wanted to say. And sorry @TSMDoublelift ' I logged into League and started playing some SoloQ.

I won my 3rd game on row since I started to play. My phoned vibrated through the last game I Queued up and checked it. @TSMDoublelift :' Don't be Sorry I should be. Sorry for trash talking you.' @Ferenica ' It's Okay buddy:)' I answered him and forget about the things he said. I got a message from Søren too. And one from my mom. I quickly read the one from my mom. 'Your Dad doesn't feel good. We brought him to the hospital. Just call when you got time or send me message. We miss and Love you.' (I'm not going to add thousand of emojis like my mom does so feel free to imagine some xD)

I don't felt good as I read it. I quit my Queue and walked upstairs. I went into my room and walked to the balcony. I took a deep breath and looked up into the stars. We got like 5 am in Germany so there was no chance to call my family. I hate being away from them when something happens. I went back in and walked to a little box, which u had in my closet. I took out a package of cigarettes and a lighter. I went back out and closed the door. I leaned I on so I could open it again. I put on my cigarette and started to smoke. I know its not good and stuff but I can't handle it right now with out. I thought about my family and my team. I don't know if it was a mistake going to NA. I wish I could be with my family right know, especially with my dad, but with out moving to America I wouldn't have met Josh. I just sat there and looked up, even as I put out my cigarette. I heard how my room door was opened and it could only be Josh. I closed my eyes and felt the cold wind on my skin. I recognized that the balcony door opened and someone sat next to me. The person took my hand I knew that Josh was next to me. "Do you want to talk about it or tell me?" He whispered. I almost couldn't understand him because the wind was getting heavier (Is this right? Don't judge me my native language isn't English). I shook my head and stand up. I couldn't sit next to him. Everything hurts and I don't want to feel it. I put my cigarettes back in the box and walked downstairs. Josh just sat on the balcony. I went back to my desk and turned on some music and played soloq the whole evening. I was the last one sitting in the gaming room. The guys went all to sleep, I mean we already got 5 am. I called my mum and asked her about my dad. I walked to our couch and sat down to talk. She told me that his condition wasn't getting better but also not worse. "I'm sorry mum but it late here so I'm going to sleep. I love you all and I miss you. I maybe come back after this split don't know. See you." With that I hung the call and walked to my room. I quickly changed into my sleeping clothes. "Baby?" Josh asked with a sleepy voice. I couldn't be angry with him or ignore him. I just couldn't. "What?" I whispered back while I put on my top. I felt how he grabbed me and pulled me into his arms. He stood before me in only in boxers. "I know that you don't want to talk about it and I respect that. But when you want to talk about I am here for you. And I don't want to force you to talk to me, so I wait till you talk to me." I wrapped my hands around his neck and he put his hands on my hips. "Thank You." Was the only think I could say because he got me out of breath. My whole body felt strange as he touched me. And not that bad strange no, that good strange. He signed me to jump up and that's what I did. I wrapped my legs around his waist and he holds me up, his arms wrapped around me. He carried me to his bed and laid me down on it. "I love you, Joshua Hartnett." I said while he was on top of me. I rolled us so I was on top. "I love you, Catherine Crown." He answered. He pulled me down and I stopped right before his head. "Don't do that to me." He said with an angry voice and tried to kiss me. I pulled away again and smirked at him. "I said stop doing it." He was getting even angrier and sat up and he forced me to sit right on HIM. "Stop being a little tease, Cat." He said with a serious voice. I innocently smiled at him. "You don't know what you do to me when you look like that." He said and his voice cracked at the end. I look into his eyes and he grabbed me and threw me on the other bedside. Now he was on top of me and I wrapped my legs around him so he comes closer to me. He let his lips strip over mine. I wanted to kiss him right now. He smirked at me as I let a out a disappointed moan. "Doesn't feel good to get teased right?" He whispered into my ear. He started to kiss my neck. "Josh. Please." I said. He let go and looked at me and I bite my lip as I look back. He took one of his fingers and pulled my lip back. "Don't bite your fucking lip." He said and got closer to me, even if I thought that wasn't possible. "Why not?" I asked with an innocently voice. "You know why and you should be happy that I can't fuck you here." He said and gave me a short but passionate kiss. "No I don't know why and why can't you." I said and tried to kiss him again but he pulled away. "Because if you do it again I might can't hold myself back. And I don't want that the other guys hear us and after it you can't walk and that would be a bit unfortunately don't you think?" He said with a big smirk on his face. "Okay, I think that's a good point Josh." I answered him. He rolled himself next to me and pulled me to him. His hands wandered under my shirt and he opened my bra. "Are you serious right know?" I asked him and he nodded. I put the bra out but I had my shirt still on. His hands touched my back and I got Goosebumps (THIS USED TO BE A GOOSEBUMPS STREAM!). I accidently bite my lip. I pulled me even closer and pressed his hip against mine. "I said don't bite your fucking lip or else I can't control myself anymore." He said with a deep voice and moved his hands to my ass. "Sorry. Daddy." I whispered in his ear. He squeezed my ass and pressed against him. "You don't know what you're doing with me." Said and we he moved his head to mine. At first the kiss was sweet and short. We shortly quit our kiss just to kiss again. But this time with more passion and lust. We made out some time and the parted away. We both smiled at each other. "I think we should go to sleep." I said and yawned. Josh laughed a bit and looked at me. "You're cute." He said and gave me a short kiss. I recognized his boner. "Is that a rocket in your pocket or are you just happy to see me?" I asked with a cheeky smiled. He took my hand in his and said "You didn't really quote Tristana while we are laying in bed and make out." He shook his head and I leaned in to kiss him but he turned away. So I started kissing his neck and Jawline. "Babe come on. Don't be like that." I said between the kisses. He moaned and turned his head to me and kissed me. I quit the kiss and turned around. "Come one it's late." I said and he pressed his boner against my ass. I quietly moaned as I felt him. "You see what you did there? I swear if we wouldn't be I the gaming house you couldn't walk tomorrow." He whispered in my ear and I giggled. "Good Night Baby and I love you" were the last words before I slept in and I don't thought about my dad or my family. I just thought about the guy sleeping next to me.

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