I woke up in a sweat with tears rolling down my face. Thank god it was just a dream. I got up and went to the room next to me immediately to make sure Tyler was okay even though i knew it was only a nightmare.
I walked in without knocking. I should really learn some manners huh?
It was only 2 a.m. so he was sound asleep.
He's a really pretty sleeper. He looked so peaceful and soft. His hands were pressed against his cheeks causing them to be pushed up in a funny way.
Was it weird that i was watching him sleep?
nah.
I didnt want to wake him up, so i slowly turned away and opened the door inch by inch. Praying the sound of the doors wouldn't disturb him. Of course, they creaked loudly. He was sure to wake up.
I was right.
I heard groaning and sheets rustling behind me.
"josh..?" tyler lets out in a husky tone. I gotta admit, His tired voice was really hot.
"hey. i just uh.. came in to see if you were okay"
"yeah, im fine..why wouldn't i be okay.?" Tyler seemed aggitated.
It could be because I woke him up and was in his room uninvited.
"I'm sorry Tyler, I.. I had a dream that you died and I was just so scared. I know we haven't known eachother long but please don't le-"
I was cut off by Tyler getting out of his bed and hugging me. But it wasn't just a hug, it was more of an embrace. It felt
safe.
"Josh, i'm not going to die. Not any time soon at least. You don't have to worry about me I promise." he's still gripping me and I don't want him to ever stop.
We both sat on his bed while he continued comforting me by rubbing my back up and down.
And for a short minute he stopped.
He spoke
"Does it ever make you feel like you've been submerged under water and cant get out?" Tyler talked out of nowhere
"uh what?"
"The thought of us.. you know, like being sick. Having cancer. Does it ever make you feel like you're drowning or something?"
"I mean, that's a weird way to put it. I guess you can say that.
"I'm sorry, I don't know how else to put it. But it takes a toll on me all the time and sometimes i'm not sure if i'm dying or living. Some days i just want to give up,you know?"
"Hey man..I know how you feel. Believe me, I do. But all we need to do is fight, Tyler. And the only way to possibly win that fight is to try and have a positive outlook on the entire situation."
"Yeah Josh you're right."
I can tell he's looking at me but I didn't want to look up. I've been staring at my feet because I didn't want to witness the sadness on his face when talking about his sickness. But I could feel his eyes on me so I eventually look up and our eyes meet.
God, I know i've said it before but his eyes are just so damn pretty. When I was younger I always thought brown eyes were the ugliest eye color but on Tyler, they're the nicest. And his lips looked so soft and plump. I think he might have caught me staring at his lips, which turned him to stare at mine. I rested my hands behind my back on to the bed where, incidentally, Tyler's hands were. I can feel my heart pounding at a million beats per second. Our hands were touching and we were awfully close to eachothers faces. Our noses maybe 3 centimeters away from eachother at most.
Inch by inch, Tyler got closer. And closer. And closer. His body shifting more towards me while still staring at my mouth. He softly cupped my cheek and
Our lips met.
For what felt like an hour only lasted 5 seconds. I struggled to find words for what I just experienced. It was hard to process what had happened. But Tyler kissed me.
Tyler actually kissed me.
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He pulled away and cracked a small smile. I had no idea how to react so i just sat there, staring. It probably looked weird but at that moment, I didn't care.
"I've been wanting to do that since the day we met." he blurted out
"I've been wanting you to do that since the day we met."
And then we kissed again. This time more passionately. The first time was just a test to make sure it was safe. This passionate kiss then turned in to a heated one.
He grasped the back of my hair aggressively but not too aggressive to the point of pain. I slowly lifted his shirt to feel what was underneath. Our breathing got heavier as I cocked my head back in pleasure. Though, there wasn't much we could do on a hospital bed, we tried to make the best of it.
I felt tylers hands run down my stomach softly. You could tell he worshipped my body by the way he was eyeing it slowly head to toe. When he touched me I turned ruby red, kinda like his hair. I just wanted to pin him up against a wall and kiss every inch of his skin.
He was so beautiful.
Both of us so in the moment, not worrying about our surroundings.
We heard the door open and we both shot up immediately.
The outline of a person just standing there in utter shock.
"Um, Mr. Dun. You're due for treatment in room 2009." The nurse standing in the doorway managed to spit out with a surprised look on her face. Probably due to the fact that tyler was still on top of me.
I tried pushing him off of me as fast as possible which didn't help, considering the nurse already saw us.
I felt bad for pushing him off but it was my first instinct. The woman seemed relatively disgusted and I don't blame her. She scoffed and left and we both looked at eachother with blank faces.
Did that really just happen??
At first I felt completely embarrassed but as time passed, we laughed at the whole situation.
I thought we'd be able to get away with it too because it was 2 am. Who would've expected me to have treatment so early?
I left his room with flutters in my chest.
I've never liked someone that much.
Walking down the halls to room 2009 staring down the path, i'm walking and just smiling.
Something I haven't done in so long.
And it was all due to Tyler Joseph.
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