Bakit?

Pangalawa

[ A: my favorite annoyances ]

Today is a Saturday and if me and Bryan were a regular couple, we'd be on a date right now.

But sadly, we're not a regular couple.

In fact, it's been a week since I last saw my beloved boyfriend. Mula noong nanuod kami ng movie at nagkabati ay hindi na kami nagkita ever since.

I try to message him whenever I can, but more often than not, hindi siya nakakareply o he replies hours after.

I know he's busy. But just as I usually do after our fights, I still mistakenly believe that things would change.

Hindi pala. After all these years, I still wasn't his priority. Everything else always came before me.

And, to tell you the truth, I don't know why I even put up with this bullshit. I am Jamie Chua and I don't put up with anyone's bullshit...pero pagdating sa kanya, tiklop ako.

Which is funny, dahil hindi naman ako ang unang nahulog sa aming dalawa. In fact, I didn't like Bryan when we first met through an off-campus after-party back in college. He was a popular jock then - the typical campus heartthrob - but he wasn't my type. I even found him too much of a jerk for my taste.

Ang laging akala ng lahat ay dahil may RBF ako at malditang aura, I'd go for guys like Bryan. Pero the truth is I preferred sweeter and more affectionate guys. In fact, all my exes were responsible and caring kasi I liked being taken care of.

Kaya nung niligawan niya ako back then, I barely gave him a glance even when all his friends claimed na patay na patay raw siya sa akin. I even rejected him multiple times.

But I guess, his persistence and constant following me around paid off. Dahil after getting to know him better and seeing sides of him that he didn't like showing others - especially his corny yet affectionate side, nakita ko na lang ang sarili kong nahulog sa kanya.

And now, here we are, with our places reversed. Ako na itong naghahabol - trying to grasp even a few seconds of his time - habang siya na itong mailap at laging busy.

Deep down in my cold, twisted heart, I know na I don't deserve this. He was a petty, possessive jerk who was always late and never had time for me but I guess love really makes us stupid.

I sighed as I tried calling him once more only to hear 'the subscriber cannot be reached' for the nth time.  Hindi ko kayang manatili lang dito sa bahay ngayong weekend kaya naisipan kong tawagan na lang si Regine, isa sa mga best friends ko. It has been a while since I saw her and our other friends.

After a few rings, she finally answered with a lazy "hello?"

"Hello, bitch! Ang tagal mong sumagot! Busy or busy-busyhan?"

["I am busy...with Aidan. Papunta na kami sa exciting part and your call cock-blocked him."]

I groaned. "I did not have to know that!"

Narinig ko siyang tumawa sa kabilang linya which made me groan more. Si Aidan ang bago niyang boyfriend at considering na mag-three months palang sila ay I can say na sobrang libog nilang dalawa based sa mga kwento ni Regine. It doesn't help na sobrang open ng babaeng ito regarding their sex life kaya I know stuff na I don't even want to know. Once, after her shocking (and slightly) disturbing story of their sexcapade, I asked her kung talagang boyfriend niya ba si Aidan o fuck buddy lang at tumawa lang siya!

["Anyway, buhay ka pa pala? I thought you were too busy wasting your life away with that fucker."]

I rolled my eyes at her reply. Ayaw ni Regine kay Bryan - to be specific, she abhors him - and she always reminds me of that fact. Ever since our first break up - where I cried my heart out and she and our friends consoled me, she has been very vocal in saying that I deserve someone far better: someone who made me his priority, someone who wasn't always late, and more importantly, someone who wasn't Bryan Santos.