You Were the One

Chapter 5: Listen

Bolting upwards when a loud banging echoed through the door, I realized that I had cried myself to sleep in the cold marble floor.

Funny how pathetic it all seemed now.

Breaking my thoughts, a loud knock once again echoed through my door.

I calmly mustered up the strength to steady my voice and ask who it was when I heard a girl's familiar voice ask me in turn.

'Mrs. Williams, are you alright?!' the girl frantically asked through the door

I let out a sigh as I realized it was Meiva, one of the younger housekeepers.

It was a relief that it wasn't Jake who was at the other side of the door since I didn't know if I could still face him after what happened last night.

My thoughts halted as I heard yet again the banging on my door.

'Mrs. Williams you're starting to scare me! I've been knocking for half an hour now' Meiva frantically gushed out while knocking endlessly

Putting the girl out of her misery, I spoke up and told her I was fine and I just fell asleep while I was in the tub.

I tried to sound light and happy however my raspy voice from my sobbing the night before gave me away.

Even to my own ears, I sounded off.

Letting out a sigh once again, I assured Meiva that I was really fine and I would be coming out in a few minutes.

Hearing her retreating steps, I was relieved to be left alone with my thoughts to myself.

Getting up not bothering looking in the mirror, I stripped the minimal clothes I still wore and jumped in the shower.

I felt myself relax as the jets of warm water cascaded down my body.

Leaning my forehead on the shower wall, my mind went wandering to Jake and what had happened the previous night.

I couldn't exactly point my finger in it but I just knew something in me had changed.

The hope that I had for me and Jake was going down the drain.

It was embarrassing and grounding to finally admit to myself that I had made the worst decision in my life when I married Jake.

I married him with the wrong reasons and it took me to seeing Rachelle and Dan over lunch the other night to finally snap out of the illusion that I had only envisioned for myself.

Witnessing how two people who were madly in love with each other can really do you harm.

I witnessed how Rachelle glowed with happiness and how Dan looked at her like she was the most precious thing in the world.

My heart went out to them when they had emotionally announced that they were expecting and I would soon become a godmother to their little angel.

Life was really full of surprises and it was a moment of celebration about two people who were meant to love each other.

I was happy and excited for the both of them. It meant the world to me that, my bestfriend was now getting to have her dreams which she deserved so much and yet there was this gaping hole inside of me that broke even more as I saw before my eyes what true love really looked like.

It was excruciating to finally see that what Jake and I had was nothing remotely compared to what Rachelle and Dan had ever shared.

Jake and I, we were strangers married to each other and nothing more.