Things I Wished You Knew

#25

Closing her diary, Margot sighed and looked out the window of her bedroom. It was raining today. The sound of it hitting the window soothed her. As it reminded her that time had surely changed since the last time she watched it fall. And in that time, Margot had been crying her heart out for the boy she once loved. The boy she once craved for. To think it had been a year. A year today, she would have found out that he was in love with another. That his heart would go into Julie's hands, only for her to break and crumble it for revenge.

Margot continued to look out her window as she thought of the 24 entries in her new diary. A diary she had gotten not too long ago to relief her mind of the thoughts she had. The thoughts that were buried within her mind but were now free in ink on those pages.

Her diary had helped her moved on the most as she'd always reread what was written and think about it afterwards.

She was overjoyed when she had written her last page about him. About Roland. She was finally over him. Margot felt nothing but relief and freedom. Sure it had taken her a while. A whole year to do so but it didn't matter to her. As long as she was no longer suffering.

After all, she had Darwin, the boy who saved her from her attempt of jumping off the cliff. The boy who stuck with her even with her countless attempts of avoiding him. The boy who fell in love with her wholeheartedly. The boy she fell in love with. The boy who saved her.

She knew she didn't deserve him though. After all, the first days as a couple, she had used him to fill the gap in her heart. A gap that did not long for him but for Roland. She knows, and oh she knows, how wrong of her it was to use him. And when she had realized she indeed loved him, she did everything in her power to make up for it. She had showered Darwin in love and care that she had failed to show at first.

She sighed once more as she looked at the frame on her desk. It was a picture of Roland and her two years ago. They were at the cliff watching the sunset when Roland decide to noogie her when the picture was taken. She smiled lightly as she thought that it no longer gave her heartbreak when she looked at it. At him. Getting up, she picked up the frame, putting it on one of the high shelves in her room. And took another frame beside it, placing it in the old one's place.

Her smile grew as she looked at the new picture. It was just taken two weeks ago. A picture of her and Darwin at her favorite pizza place. She was laughing at a joke he had said as he was looking at her lovingly.

A knock on the door interrupted her thoughts as she turned around, seeing the door open and a face looking in.

"Margot? You in here?"

"Oh hey." She said smiling at Darwin.

He walked in with a tight smile, causing Margot to scrunch her brows in confusion.

"Something wrong?" She questioned him.

"Depends on how you'd view it. He's outside." Darwin said with distaste. With the way he had said it, Margot can already tell who he was talking about.

"I'll go talk with him." She said after a small moment of silence. And she awaited for him to respond, knowing that he wouldn't agree with her.

And he didn't. Darwin was fuming but kept his composure for the sake of Margot. He hated him with his all. He was the reason Margot became depressed and suicidal. He was the reasons for her nightmares and her tears. He hated him even more at the thought of him kissing her, him begging for her and her love. Something that Darwin already had and refused to let go of. He was possessive of her but not the bad kind. He just wanted to protect her. He didn't understand why she would still try to talk with him. But nothing the less, he trusted that she knew what she was doing. Though he had much to thank him for. He was the reason Darwin had Margot in his life now.