With you

Chapter 35: Forever and always

3 years later

Sehun pov
We just finished our performance at MAMA and headed to the after party. So much had changed in these last few years. I looked around our limo. Baekh and Chanyeol were teasingly kissing each other, with loving eyes and I quickly looked away. Kai and Do were sleeping on each other. Looking at them I felt a spark of a memory. Me and Luhan used to fall asleep like that after his much loved football marathons. The memory didn't hurt anymore, but I still held it fondly. The rest, lay suho, Chen, and Xiumin were talking or playing games on there phones. We were comfortable with each other, they were almost like a second family. When Luhan left, it felt like life would never go on, that everything had just stopped. That I would stop. He promised me, but I guess that promise was laced with a lie. I hated him. I hated him so much. Every thought of mine was consumed of him. And then I cried. Day in and day out. It never stopped. I missed him so much. Day in and day out I called. He never picked up. Every concert we had, every event, I hoped I'd see him. But he never came and I forced myself to forget. The taste of his lips, his doe eyed smile. His hand in mine. Our bodies pressed together. It was a torture like no other. But time passed and I stopped feeling the pain and I learned to accept. I had to move on. I had loved the most incredible beautiful man in the world and I knew he had loved me back just as much. But that was in the past. My time with him was almost like a dream, too beautiful to let go of. But finally I was awake.
A lot more people were at the after party than I'd expected, representatives from all over Asia actually. Let me just say this, SM knew how to throw parties. The hall was awesome, big enough to be a mansion. Expensive drinks were given by waiters at every corner.
" Hey Sehun!" I turn to see Taeil moving towards me. He was a trainee who I thought was cute in the way he always got shy and flustered. Somehow he and I had gotten really close. Do thought he liked me, a lot. I didn't know what to think about that.
" I was wondering if you would wanna head back a bit early with me and uh maybe grab a bite to eat, I mean only if you want to!" By this time his face was all hot and flustered. I smiled and ruffled his hair.
" Sure, let's do that." He started talking animatedly about how he thought our performance went. We were huddled a lot closer together now because of the crowd.
" Sehun?" I turned around and I couldn't believe my eyes. It was like a mirage had suddenly appeared right in front of me. One with a small face and sparkling doe eyes. Luhan.
" Taeil, I'll catch you later." He looked disappointed but nonetheless left. That left me staring at Luhan. He looked the same but at the same time so different. The same delicate smile, and confident posture. I realized the difference. And it was that I didn't recognize him as mine anymore.
" You look good Sehun." His voice was strained, a bit wistful even.
" Thanks, I've been good. I'm happy... and you?" He thought about it for a bit and smiled.
" I think I'm on my way to being happy." We both tentatively smiled at each other. It was then I realized that I truly was okay, and that Luhan was too. We were meant for each other in the short time that felt like forever, but forever had finally come to an end. A new chapter had already begun, and I'd never realized. Looking at Luhan now and seeing how calm and poised he looked gave my heart ease. It was okay. We were both on different paths. But both of our paths led to happiness, even if it didn't include each other. We both struggled and sacrificed a lot for each other and for ourselves. But in the end we had grown and matured. Love isn't infinite and all conquering.
But Luhan and I, ours was a love like no other, meant to be cherished.
Forever and always.