On This Death Bed

Chapter 9

        I was on my way over to Haley's house to talk. The street was silent not a car or person in sight. This wasn't usual however, there were sever houses on the block that have been empty for years. I'm not really sure why just no one has brother to move in.  It was only a two minute walk from my home to her's, but it seemed like forever. I knocked on the door and Haley opened it a couple seconds later. She engulfed me in a hug, and lead me in to the living room. We walked over and sat on her tan couch she has had since I can remember.

        "Hey, Kira how are you? I haven't seen you this week." She asked.

        "Pretty good, How about you? Are you okay?" I asked her.

        "Yeah, it's just been different. The house just seems so lonely. So what did you want to talk about?" She questioned 

        "Well there's actually a couple things, but I'll start with Ed-" I started she cut me off mid sentence.

        "Oh it's awful that he didn't even come to his daughters funeral I think, but please continue" She says.

        "That's the thing he did come, he sat in the back and snuck out the back door and waited for me to come out. While Ashton was laying in bed one day she asked me to help her write a note to her father, and once she pass to invite him to the funeral and give him the note. So after her passing I found him on Facebook and messaged him saying that Ashton passed and that she wanted you to be at her funeral and that I need to talk to you then I sent him the funeral information" I confessed to her thinking she had the right to know. 

        "Wow, thanks for telling me it makes me feel better knowing that heat least he had enough respect to come." she said.

        "I wanted to tell you sooner, but I didn't know how and I was afraid that you would be mad that I went behind your back and invited him. But I knew Ashton wanted him there so I told him." I confessed 

        "It's fine honey you did what you always do and that's doing what ever Ashton wanted you to." she told me

        "And another thing is that Ashton wanted you two to  get back together. She felt that she just got in the way of you two so in her latter she told Ed to try to get back with you now that she not here anymore. Do what you want with that information I just thought that you should know." I said 

        "Well thank you for that, but I don't think I could get back with him. To be honest our marriage was falling apart way before Ashton got sick. I suppose it all started when I got pregnant with Ashton. I wanted kids, but he didn't so when I found out and told him he got so mad and threaten to leave then but I convinced him to stay for me. Then when the kid he didn't want in the first place got sick he snapped and I couldn't get him to stay so I let him go, and do what ever he wanted to." She confessed to me. 

       " Wow I had no idea." I didn't know what else to to say so I didn't say anything thing else.

       "It's fine so is their anything else you need to talk about?" she asked

       "Yeah there is one other thing I wanted to talk about with you. So um last week I went to therapy and she said I needed closer, and the best way to do that is by writing. So I wanted to know if it's okay for me to write a book about Ashton's final days. You don't have to say yes I just want to know if you're okay with it since she was our daughter, and I don't want to go behind your back again." I questioned wanting her input.

        "Of course you can sweet heart I don't mind. I just ask one thing of you." She said

       "Sure what is it?" I asked wanting to know what she was talking about. 

      "You can write what ever you want I just want to be the first one to read it. Do you think that would be okay." She asked.

       "Of course that sounds fair. Well I have to go me and my mom are going see a couple of her friends, but as soon as I finish i'll bring it over for you to read. Thank you so much Haley." I said goodbye and left and ran down the street to my house, and up the stairs to my room.

        I ran into my room and sat at my desk. I pulled out my phone and texted my mom that I don't feel good that I was going to just stay home, but she could go without me. She asked if I would be okay home alone so I texted her back of course since I said home alone all the time. She left it at that and a few minutes later I heard the front door open and close, and her car started up and left the drive way. I pulled out my laptop and started it up while when down stairs to get some food.

        When I returned my laptop was powered up. I opened up a word document and sat their starring  at the blank document I wasn't sure how to start it so I sat their waiting and trying different sentences, but nothing was doing justice to Ashton's life. I shut my computer and went to lay on my bed. I laid their looking up at my ceiling hoping for something to just come to me, but nothing ever did. I decided to just try resting hoping a nice nap will give me some ideas.