written on my grave~

chapter 6: bad apple

“Ren…” she answered my moans with a call as well. “Ren, I just wanted to explain.” She said to me begging for forgiveness. She walked to me, slowly and slowly without saying a word. I didn’t know what to do. Would I hesitate? Would I go away and leave her again? Or would I stay here and wait for her to finally warm me up?

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“Cid, please don’t leave me like this again!” the flashes were fast. I shifted my body weight and paced to come to her. My mind suddenly answered the array of questions with one answer. I embraced her wholly and warmly. And dude, how much I love this thing! It was so surreal. It was fantastic to be with her again.

“Ever again.” I made the last few words of my sentence mark for I never wanted this to happen, EVER AGAIN. My arms towering over her frail body leaning to mine; we were the protections of each other.

Then I heard a serenade of sobs. She was crying steadily within my tight grasp. She is one of a kind. She cries but almost as singing about love. “I love you.” Those were the words of love that I could draw out of her beautiful soul.

“Sorry. I’m really sorry, what happened was a big mistake.  Alex was...” I cut her off explaining.

“Shh……”None of it would make sense because I didn’t need them, not anymore. All I needed was her. I looked down upon her and said, “I understand. I’m much sorrier.”

“No! Of course not! It’s my entire fault. Because of me we’re here fighting…” she screamed.

“Oh, stop it! Cid vicious! We’re not even fighting! This is just what I wanted.” I threw my revelations joking.  “Ain’t you my Cinderella?” then I burst out a laugh so loud. But Cid just looked at me so meaningfully and I felt awkward.

“What’s up with the stare?”

“I love you too. Very much. “She said very lovingly to me with a very lively smile. I gave a bigger smile in the sincerest of my heart.

“You’re blushing.” I joked.

She dug her face on my chest. Just the way I expected. I lifted her face delicately and our eyes met each other. After a moment…

“What are you waiting for?” she broke my focus.

“Cid?!” I complaint.

“What?!” she yelled back. “Are you going to kiss me or not?”

“Of course, I will!!”

“Then why the stare?! Just kiss me, Nancy!”

“Can’t you just wait VICIOUS?”

“Damn it!” she shouted and then she held my face, kissed me in a flash and smiled. “Like that!”

“Oh, babe! You’re such a sucker for me!” I told her teasing. She smirked. Then I kissed her.

I could taste her strawberry lipstick as we explored each other’s mouth. Her velvet soft lips were like feathers and were as pink as cherry blossoms falling down in the autumn of Japan. I couldn’t let go of these lips, of this angel. We made out of the pouring rain. We ignored everything around us, as if we were inside our sailing cosmos. It was too good to be true and yet it was real. It was like watching sex pistols and greenday perform infront of me in the stage of staples, LA, except that it was more amazing.

“Not loving you is harder than you know. Cid, I love you.” I told her once more.

“I know. And I love you too. Can’t believe you pulled Silverstein rather than greenday.” she replied with a bite of her bad apple.

And so, we kissed again for what seem to be forever.

“You’re the best damn thing!” she told me.

“You are too, Avril.” I told her looking right at her gleaming auburn eyes.