Somebody Else

XV | Solo

This one is a little short guys - but enjoy.

It's getting colder and colder, yet here I am sitting on the frozen grass and staring at the starry midnight blue night sky. Each star twinkles at different times, giving each a moment to shine the brightest alone and it makes me happy to be able to witness this.

Sometimes it's just best to take a break from everything around me. I'm sure the social aspect of my life is what has been doing the most damage, relationship wise, but I feel like I have it somewhat under control.

Kimberley is a huge contributor to that.

A slight breezes pushes hair onto my face as I begin to think of her ideology that we each have a star that shines the brightest when we find happiness.

Or at least it was something like that.

It really amazes me that I didn't seen any of this coming. She was just a girl I decided to help study with Nic and now she's probably or will be the most important person in my life. She's met my family and she's met my friends. It's incredible.

Would've been extremely lovely to have her here shivering next to me and showing me that heavenly smile that makes me literally melt inside every single time. She makes me so happy I don't think I can see any aspect of my life without her.

It's sad - I thought before it would be Eli and I together forever but it didn't turn out that way. And I still don't believe I can wrap my head around it fully.

I didn't think that I would be interested in a girl but that doesn't bother me. I guess I just like people for who they are.

And how can anyone not like Kimberley?

She is the epitome of happiness. She radiates as bright as the sun. No she is the sun. Kimberley is the sun and she brings the light to my life.

Kicking my feet in the air, I lay back onto the grass, still studying the stars.

I have to go to work in a couple of hours. I have to stay there for the entire day. But here I am resting after a hike and letting my thoughts run wild in my brain.

Maybe that's not such a good idea.

Or maybe it is.

I think my father would be proud of me. He was always pretty accepting of who my siblings and I grew to be in the time he was here, but I think he would see what I see in Kimberley. I believe he would see how wonderful she is and how understanding she is. She's very understanding. Maybe he'll see how head over heels I am for her in such a short period of time. He'll see that she'll probably have a love for me I've never felt.

My father would say, like he always does, "Chezzie, if someone puts more smiles on your face then frowns, then you keep them in your life and hold on tight."

And I would respond, "You put a lot of smiles on my faces. I only frown when you tell bad jokes."

This would ensue in laughter, a lot of it, and we would probably continue with whatever we were doing. Normally, we would be doing something together like taking a hike through this same park on an early Saturday morning and complaining about the week we just endured.

I can't let those times go.

It's very rare for me to come here alone, but I needed this today because this is the only place I can think alone.

The girls are way too loud to even think about getting a glass of water, Lauren's house is overrun with a screaming little Leilani, and I don't have anywhere else to go.

And it's really refreshing.

Even though the sky is still low and dark, I can see the peaks of light begin to break through the darkness. The morning was gradually approaching but the night was still here.

For now.

I have stared at this sky a million times in my life and it still amazes me as it transitions through different periods of the day. This being the biggest as it goes from night to day. It signifies a start over from before. People wake up with a clean slate, an optimism to do better than they did the day before and can hopefully be a better them.

A new beginning.

Rolling over, I push myself up and begin to walk back to my car which is a mere thirty minutes away.

As I do, it isn't hard for me to stuff my hands into my pockets and keep my head tilted so I can stare at how the tall trees block out the the view of the sky, only letting the light slither in.

A small smile rises on my face as I walk out of the park and into the lot to find my car right where I left it. I slide onto the seat before I grip the steering wheel and listen to my phone vibrate uncontrollably from all of the messages I was not able to receive from the lack of reception.

Pulling my seatbelt over my chest, I sigh before I decide to have my phone read my voicemails out loud. I only have two of them, but I'm not sure from who as I now keep my eyes on the road instead of the screen.

"Cheryl, get your ass back in the house. Where the hell are you? How am I supposed to tell Nicola that you aren't in here. You know you usually wake her up in the morning. She looks forward to you pulling her bedsheets off of her legs."

That one was from Sarah.

The second one was also from Sarah.

"Well since you're out, can you get some orange juice. Nic got mad at me for eating her last row Oreos. I know you're like, really Sarah a whole row? and yes. They're really addictive so she poured my orange juice down the sink drain."

Sighing again, I pull over to search for the nearest supermarket in my maps app so I can buy her orange juice and a couple of other things. This is when I see that I have one message, a medium one in length, from Kimberley and I ask my phone to read it out loud as I continue to drive again.

Before it plays, my eyes gaze at the sky through the front windshield.

The sky has finally escaped from the night causing vibrant shades of pink and striking shades of orange caress the sky as the sun is now twinkling in the sky. There isn't a cloud in sight, letting the beautiful glow of the sunrise hard to pull my eyes away from.

Then Kimberley's message begins to play.

"Hey Chezzie. I'm sure you're probably sleep or something but I'm just looking at the night sky and all of the stars are shining so bright. It's so cool I wish you could look at it right now. Or look at it with me so we can point out all the constellations. But isn't that amazing? Every time I stare at the night sky, all I can think about is you. Maybe you're the reason they're shining so bright."