The bad news still hadn't completely sunk in. It didn't seem that such a horrible fate could exist. Not in this universe. But then, everyone always thinks it'll never happen to them. Everyone thinks they're untouchable, but they're not. He had just found that out.
He knew he had to face reality sooner or later. His daydreams just seemed so much more comforting than having to come to terms with the fact that he was dying. Death was creeping closer, day after day.
Death. Such a certain, unavoidable word. Suddenly, the situation hit him fully, and for the first time he was able to comprehend what was happening. He. Was. Dying. It got difficult to breathe, and his surroundings seemed intensified. Everything seemed so bright, unrealistic. The scenery, the whole day in fact, was beautiful, but he couldn't bring himself to care.
'What does it matter?' He thought, 'It's just going to go away eventually, just like everything else in this life.'
He remembered the look on his mother's face when the doctor told her that her son was dying. He remembered the tears that streamed down her face. His insides felt hollow as he realized that she would be all alone in this world when he was gone. Since his birth it had only been the two of them.
He wished with all his might that things could be different, if not for him, then for his mother's sake, but he knew that wishing wouldn't help. Nothing could.
'I'm doomed.' He thought gloomily.
He looked at his surroundings again, and thought of everyone he would be leaving behind. His mother. His friends. His dog. He pictured them at his funeral, and wondered what their lives would be like without him. Then he started imagining a life where he had never existed, and therefore be unable to leave a lot of grieving hearts behind.
Suddenly, the pain and emotion became too much, and tears sprung to his eyes. He started sobbing uncontrollably, crying for the first time since he had received the terrible news. People around him stared, shocked, but he didn't care. He needed an escape from the reality, and so he turned to his old addiction. Drugs. He didn't care anymore. Everything seemed way too messed up to care about.
*****
The world had become shiny and distorted, and he had lost track of time days ago. Or was it minutes? He giggled at himself. There were pulsing lights dancing around his head, making him dizzy. He tried to touch one, but it stayed just out of reach. He tried a few more times, but kept failing. Suddenly, a deep, dark word came flying into his drugged, distorted view of reality. Death. He shook his head like a dog trying to shake off water, trying to rid himself from the thought, even though he couldn't even remember why it was bothering him.
A hand on his shoulder distracted him from his confusion, and his thoughts went cartwheeling into mayhem again. When looked behind him no-one was there, and when he turned back, all thoughts about death had left him. Everything was back to being a bright, jumbled mess, which was the way he preferred it at the moment, as disorientated as he felt.
*****
He was back in reality, feeling disgruntled and angry. Very angry. Angry at life. Angry at death. Angry at himself. Angry at his mother for giving birth to him. Angry at his father for leaving his mother all alone. His extreme anger at everyone and everything overwhelmed him, and he stormed out of the house like a bull that had seen a red flag.
The wind had started blowing, and a crumpled soda can was making its way towards him. With a frustrated grunt, he kicked the can with all his might, causing it to arc through the air before landing in the street. Once again, the people around him gaped at him, and once again he didn't care. Ignoring them, he opened his mouth and screamed until he felt like his lungs were on fire. Then he knelt down on the pavement, hugging his chest.
In that moment, he realized that he could not change his predicament. He could try everything, it wouldn't matter. Nothing mattered anymore...
Coming Soon: Broken Home - 5 Seconds Of Summer.
[A/N - Who knew Bohemian Rhapsody could be so sad? Comment any songs and ideas.]
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Short Stories Based On Songs
NouvellesIn which I write short stories, each story inspired by a single song, which will be indicated in the title of the chapter. Each chapter is one story, which have absolutely no relation to each other and can be read seperately. Don't hesitate to comme...