All I want for Christmas is
Some rose petal tea
Some tranquility
Maybe some more patience please
Or the ability to see
Ever so perfectly
Or even to be able to live comfortably
Maybe less defiance
More compliance
Less of a biase
Perhaps a better grade in science
Maybe a nice knit sweater
Or the ability to do better
A small wallet made of leather?
To write faster?
Perhaps one day be a master?
Maybe even to be content
With everything in the present
To return every favor I ever lent
To explain my sexuality isn't bent
To make sure my money is well spent
Maybe Im thinking to complex
Maybe all I want is what I have
Maybe all I want is the rainy days
The warm bitter coffee and your gaze
The smell of my shampoo and yours too
The strong mints that could help anyone breathe
My soft spot for old antiques
The glycerin soap that smells of rose
The way that you walk, is almost like a pose
Maybe all I ever wanted was the smell of the forest
Damp and filled with trees
And the bruises on my knees
The smell of pine in the air
The feeling that warms us all from despair
The way you run your fingers through my hair
The way we listen to our music, that used to be a blare
Maybe all I needed was the glowing of the hearth
Singing about religious figure's birth
Seeing the glow from the candles that adorn my room
Burning the edges of my paper as I do
Singing hymns with my broken family
Hoping the winter can repair all of thee
Maybe all I needed was the special coffee we got on Christmas day
The precious snow that usually comes as rain
The mist that settles on a cold icey day
Missing the way I used to play
Maybe all I needed was
Nothing
All I need is nothing
To change
All I ever needed was for nothing to change.
