I didn't want to admit that I
Missed the shadow of you
The feeling of your arms around me
I wanted to say that I didn't miss those pretty eyes or your messy hair
Cliche things I love with care
The first time I came to know you
You were saturated in rain water
Standing at my front door
I handed you my favorite blanket
To keep warm in my garage over night
I knew you were trouble
I knew what I was getting myself into
I'm kicking myself for getting involved too
You brought out the worst in me
You make me unstable
You made my heart bleed
You were an illegal daydream at best
I only had myself to impress
What shocks me most is that
You actually originally wanted to be with me
Was it all a joke
Was I just a game
You threw the first hundred
" I love you's "
At me
And wondered why I wasn't doing the same
I cared
I really did
But things never last
Everyone saw you as the bad guy
I remember bailing you out of life when
You were completely high
I realized who I became with you
An empty shell of myself
With nothing to do
I can't even cry about you
I just miss waking up beside you and seeing your face
Even though that was the first trust breaking thing
I should have listened to the people around me
I should have been more careful
I let you take my drug virginity
Mind you I'm the one who popped two or three
I wouldn't be in this predicament if it wasn't for me
That night she was in the background
With your arm covered in ink
Now the only tattoo I have
Is you in my brain
I can't forget about you
You're here to stay
Sometimes I think about you
Night and day, cliche
Sometimes I wish you had stayed
Other times I think you leaving
Was much too delayed
I got too attached
To the boy with ringed black hair
With the unknown life
Filled with danger, without care
I forgot to be myself
I lost my way
In your pretty little words
All of those days
Now I have nothing but regret
But leaving you
Was one of the best desisions I ever made
I'm not mad at you anymore
Don't get me wrong
Everything that happened
That's too far gone
And so am I
So I guess I'm done.
