Hold Still For Me | Eren X Levi

Chapter 8

So....about the wait. Sorry about that my dudes. I've been busy with school and homework and all that jazz so I've kinda forgot about everything I've been writing. I also haven't been able to write good chapters when I have attempted. So again, sorry for making you wait a thousand years. I guess I just have writers block¿ I dunno but it's annoying.
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Eren p.o.v.

After Levi left the building I sat there for a couple minutes, stunned, before I quickly got up and left to go to my car.

Holy shit what the fuck.

I quickly dialed Mikasa on the phone because I needed to tell her. Keeping secrets from her definitely isn't a good thing because I'll know she'll find out eventually. She always does.

And since this is about Levi I'm sure she'd murder me if I kept this on the down low from her.

"Hey Mikasa I have to tell you something." I said immediately after she picked up, not even giving her time to say a proper 'hello'.

"What is it?" She asked as I put the phone on speaker and pulled out of the parking lot. 

"Ok so you're probably going to shove a cactus up my ass when I tell you this but bare with me," I paused, "so uhm...firstly, I just got done with hanging out with Lev-"

"WHAT?!" She practically screamed into the phone cutting me off before I could finish saying his name. 

"Wait Mikasa, wait. That's not even the part you're going to hate the most. We were talking and me being single somehow came up and he said he'd, quote on quote, like to help out with that." I said, waiting for another scream.

"Oh god Eren. What's you're opinion on this then? You know he's old right? He's an ass too." She replied, more calmly than I expected her to.

"...Well I know you have a strong opinion about him but I dunno. He seems pretty cool. He's nice to me at least."

By this time, I had reached my apartment parking lot.

"Well you're right about me having a strong opinion...but I guess if he's being a decent person maybe he's changed. It doesn't mean I trust him though."

That was a relief. I was almost certain she was going to kill both of us for even breathing the same air.

"Ok thanks 'kasa." I smiled.

We eventually hung up and I made my way to my room.

I don't know. What do I think about this. He's cool for as much as I've talked to him? But I've barely talked to him. I just know he's hot a d really nice to draw.

Flopping down on my couch, I turn the TV on, hoping to find something interesting on, but after a couple minutes of flicking through the channels, I give up. Eventually getting too bored, I pull my phone out and bring up Mikasa's number once again. It's not even 8 so I figure we can hang out....and she can lecture me on possibly catching feelings for Levi.

~time skip~

"Eren.....WHY?!" Mikasa said to me, almost in a yell.

I had spilled my secret about my oncoming feelings and I told her about everything that happened today with him. She's still sending me mixed signals on how she feels with this.

Shrugging in response to her question, she sighs and pinches the bridge of her nose.

"Why don't you just tell me why you hate him so much? You never really mentioned him in the past either. Like I know you have cousins but if he's done so much to you guys why hadn't you talked about him?" I ask.

Looking up from her position, she sighs once again and leans further into the couch.

"I guess if you really want to know."

I get a little excited to hear the story, pulling my knees up to my chest and bringing all of my attention to her.

"So, I guess you can't say he doesn't care about family, just not me," she pauses, "years ago when my parents died, you know that I had nobody to watch over me and how I was homed with my aunt and uncle. Well I've never really went into depth but they were kinda abusive towards me. It was nothing too bad but it was enough to upset me and make me angry as a growing child. Once I got older to understand things more, I learned that I could've been put with Levi but he denied me. At the time of my parents death he was old enough to care for me so he had no excuse. The only reason he didn't is because he didn't want to. So that's why I have a grudge against him." She stopped.

Taking in a deep breath I took in everything she said. It was a lot to process.

"Look 'kasa, I don't want to take his side or anything but what if he didn't take you because  he's just not good with kids? It could've been something valid that caused him to refuse." I spoke out, letting her hear my opinion. "Just because he didn't take you in also doesn't depict if he's a bad person or not, and I know you know that." I spoke again, looking at her with intense eyes.

She looked up to meet my gaze.

"I know Eren but I mean, look at it from my point of view and forget about wanting his ass for a second, you would be salty too." She sent a small smirk because of her statement.

Breaking eye contact and trying to hide my blush, I kind of understand where she's coming from. I know I would be angry but I couldn't hold it against him forever.

Pushing the whole topic away, I change the subject.

"You want some dinner?" I ask, in which she happily nods yes to in reply.

~time skip again~

After eating some sandwiches and chips along with making small talk, Mikasa was on her way out the door to leave.

"See ya tomorrow." I call out.

She waves her hand to say bye and then closes the door.

I turn around and lean against the door, repeating the night in my head.

Maybe I can convince her to not hate Levi so much.
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HOLY SHIT MY DUDES. I had planned on making this longer but I've been so stuck with writing and this is all I could get so I hope it's good enough for you guys. I'll try to update more frequently too since I understand waiting for a million years can be frustrating.

Again, I'm sorry and I hope you like this chapter.