As you had noticed, my world was divided into two.. World of dreams and world of complexity.. Can you identify what world is imperfect to me? Both worlds were imperfect. there’s no perfect world I think.. Our world was perfectly made by our almighty creator, it was blessed with natural resources, waters teeming with fish, and there were animals and trees in the forest and everything. Also, we are the perfect creature who are blessed with intelligence, rationality, wisdom and many others that defines us to be human.. if god has made the world perfectly, what makes it such an imperfect world?
Obviously, my world of dreams is imperfect as it was made only by my imaginations.. In my world of doubts, fears and complexity it was imperfect to me too. Aside from suffering the cruelty of what our world was mourning, I mean it imperfect as my world was tortured of such imperfection. Imperfect because I had a lot of fears that I am so scared to face it. Imperfect because I have many doubts, I am not sure of what to do and such made me no direction and always confused of what way I should have to take. Imperfect because of complexity, life is very complicated. We need to face all to reach what all we wanted, to suffice our happiness... and that’s how I define life..
To this imperfect world I belong, this taught me how to be strong dwelling on my complex life. This encourages me to struggle beyond those tears. I, like of Ariel, was seemed to be deprived of our happiness for I need to sacrifice it for my family.. if Ariel was bored dwelling in the ocean and staying there swimming for a long time, I am bored as hell as well staring on the four walls I faced but, I pledge not to leave such walls for that walls had protected me from danger. Like Ariel’s promise, never leave the ocean to protect her co creatures and such safety made me happy for living these years.
Exploration is important for youll gain a lot of knowledge through what you had been explored. How can I explore world when i am inside my cage? how can i be knowledgeable when my learning were just limited?
In my entire life, I’ve been studying for many years, writing some things but I don’t think I am that knowledgeable when I am blessed with skills and wealth to study. I am not that knowledgeable because.. I am into my imaginations. . I am not in to where the real settings are.
When I stepped the world in studying a university for my college life, people around me were real, they are not in their fairytale costumes, and they are all wearing their uniforms, when I tried to open my eyes to know if I am dreaming, well, yeah I’m not dreaming. I am really stepping the stone where I am in. This is reality. Here, I saw people of their different dreams, wants and desires. I don’t know who’s that person that is the same as me, as weird as me.
Then, unexpectedly, I met someone who is now a part of my story. She brought me the colors that may brighten up my pale story book. She was an alien! She was pretty, nice and friendly. I don’t dreamed to have an alien friend but for me she was a blessing. Her kindness had made my world at peace. She’s my best friend for many years. We’ve been into a lot of experiences. We sometimes have ups and downs. We encouraged ourselves to do something great. We helped each other no matter what. She joined me cry and cheered me up in some complicated circumstances. In my real world, she's acting like my fairy god mother. I felt that I am protected all the time through her guidance, her protections, advices and everything that makes me the person I am today. And for that, this made me say,
"In my imperfect world, I don’t intend to find a perfect creature as nobody really is perfect. But when I found my best friend, I don’t think of imperfections at all. all i know, she has been a perfect creature for me as whatever that lacks me, whatever that weakens me, she provides me the strengths, and when I felt like I'm empty she filled my life complete. Now I realized and very much grateful that in my long long journey, It's not impossible to dream to have a fairy god mother as well in this tough world, friends or any one can be your fairy god mother and for me that is my best friend! She's the perfect creature in my imperfect world."
