Trapped

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"wassup ma?" Shaun spoke swiftly
" hi.. " I was kinda nervous
" I never did get your name. "
" it's Ashya (auh-shy-ah)"
" Ashya? pronounced like auhshya? "
" yeah"
" It's different.. I like it"
" thanks. " I slyly smiled
" I ain't expect to see you here though. You be at all Nasir's party?"
" no this my first party" I said kinda embarrassed 😩
he stared at my face and laughed when he realized I was serious.

         We really talked the whole party while everyone else was grinding on each other and dancing.. Christina kept staring at us. She began to walk towards us and rolled her eyes at me
" Shuannyyy—" she whined
" wassup? " he said dryly
" I miss you baby.. " she looked at me after saying that
" I'm in the middle of a conversation right now Christ—"
" but baby... she's not even that important."
I just laughed she was really acting desperate.
" your girl wants you right now, I'll see you around." I said politely and walked away
I came to have a good time not worry about someone's relationship problems. I don't even talk to boys. Boys have never really paid me any mind because I wasn't lightskin and because I was too skinny/wasn't thick.. I mean I have a nice body but I never wore tight clothing, I've never been that comfortable revealing my body.. tight clothes made me feel like I was showing too much.. anyways for Shaun to take interest in me, it felt nice. However, if he comes with drama, I don't want anything to do with him.. anything at all!

It was around 11pm and I was ready to leave. I know how to dance like throw it back and grind on people. I've practiced many times on my wall. Yeah, I know I'm weird..
" shawty?" A light skin male walked up to me
" yes?"
" you Ashya?"
" yeah"
" Chrissy ( aka Christina ) told me to tell you she's warning you to leave shaun alone.. "
" ugh nobody is worried about him!!"
" Shit I don't know nothing. All I know is you should listen when Christiana gives a warning because she's serious! " he walked away
I was becoming irritated all I did was talk to the boy!! That was my que to leave.
I walked back home. It was dark, and humid. I was kind of scared because I felt like someone was following me. I'm so paranoid..
* 20mins later*

I unlocked the door, and began to walk to my room. I heard loud moans coming from the kitchen.. who the fuck has sex in the kitchen?
" Shya is that your black ass ?" My mom yelled out
I ignored her and opened my room door
She walked into my room basically naked.
She slapped me and said " when I speak to you answer me. You was probably somewhere getting fucked all crazy, then got the nerve to walk into MY house like this."
" first of all this is not a house. It's a cheap run-down apartment, second of all I'm a virgin , third of you have no right to smack me! You whore ass bitchh!"
I was fed up with her!! I just want to leave
She walked out the room, and when she came back her husband—my father's killer— Gary was next to her.
He approached me, and pulled out a gun.
" you got a lot of nerve to walk in here and disrespect your mama when she'sdid nothing but provide for your dumb ass. You just a complete replica of your dumb ass daddy. " he spat and pistol-whipped me.
I spat out a whole bunch of blood, and yelled.. hoping that someone would hear my yells. no one came.. no one heard. He continuously punched me, and my mom stood behind him watching. After a while she walked out. I tried to fight him back but he just hit back harder.. I gave up.

He hovered himself over my body, and began ripping my clothes off.
" STOP, STOP, PLEASE. " I cried out
He stripped off every last piece of clothing I had on and thrusted into me. I fought hard and long but he was too strong. It hurt so bad... he kept thrusting into me with no mercy. I was bleeding everywhere, and he didn't care to stop.. he turned me over and nutted on my back. He exited my room and went back to my mom.. I heard loud moans after a few minutes.. how could she have sex with him after he just raped and abused me? I ran to the bathroom and threw up. I got into the shower and scrubbed myself about twenty times.. no matter what I did, I could never get rid of that impurity.. I had to get out of this place now. I had to leave, but I had no where to go, and I sure as hell wasn't going to walk around at this time of night.
I got out of the shower , ran to my room and locked the door. I grabbed my old little suitcase I had from when I was like 10. I packed all my little things in it, and I grabbed two trashbags . In the first trash bag I dumped all of my cloths, perfumes, and jackets into it. In the second one it was all my cheap jewelry, lotions,sneakers,boots,hair accessories. I packed everything I owned. When I was done my room was empty. I scrapped the walls off and took all of my father's pictures. I removed everything only things remaining in the room were the cheap little nightstand , TV , my bed, and my lamp. I sat on my bed and cried.. I just bawled my eyes out. I didnt understand why all of this happened to me.. before I knew it I had cried myself sound asleep. My alarm was already set for 5:30AM. The sun should be up by then and I can leave without them seeing me.