Trapped

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         My alarm rang and I tried to jump out of bed but I felt a pair of tight arms wrapped around me. I instantly remembered last nights events..
" Shaun get up."
"Hmmm" he mumbled
" get up we got school. "
" I'm not going. "
" why?"
" ion feel like it.."
         oh see this where we can't work. I like boys that take their education seriously.. as serious as I take mine! you can't just chose one day you don't want to go to school because you don't feel like it.
" okay get off me then"
I said attempting to push his arms off of me, until he let loose.
I got my bags and went to the bathroom. 45minutes late I was out of the shower, and getting dressed. I wore some gray joggers, some slides gray and white slides they were the furkind , and a white halter top. I brought a hoodie just in case the classroom got cold. I put on a white headband and threw my hair into a messy ponytail. I guess you could say I was trying too hard to match. I just threw anything on to be honest. I grabbed my bookbag, told Shaun I was leaving, and walked to school.
       Shaun didn't live far from the school, it was a 20minute walk. I entered the building and went through the metal detector. You're probably wondering why my school has a medical detector, well when you have kids from the Bronx who are mostly all in gangs or into street related stuff you must have one. They always use to bring guns to school before we got the metal detector. Some of them try to go through the back of the school, so they can bring their guns and/or other weapons but they always get caught. I always went in clear. I walked to my homeroom class, and took a seat in the front row.
         We didn't really do anything in homeroom. There were a group of kids talking—mostly gossiping— a group of kids doing their homework from the night before—mostly cheating off someone else's homework—, some kids on their phones, and kids like me— not talking to anyone—. I waited for the bell to ring, and headed to my first period class which was French. I always sat in the front in every class. The drama is too much in the back.
         " bonjour everyone, ça va?" my teacher said joyfully
no one else really paid attention in class except me.. so no one answered her back because they didn't know what she was saying.
Her joyful mood turned into an attitude
" you guys need to pay attention in class!"
      So the rest of the class period went by with her snapping on us, and attempting to teach us.. hoping that they'd pay attention.
*2:15pm*
        School went by pretty slow today. Probably because there was only two days left of school . Anyways it felt like forever... i walked home, and the door was unlocked. I entered , locked it, then walked upstairs and plopped myself on my bed. I dropped my bag on the floor and laid flat on my stomach.
" ughhhhhhhhhhhhh" I yelled
I thought no one was home, but after I yelled that I heard a yell from downstairs
" SHUT THE FUCK UP" I heard an unfamiliar voice ...
Did somebody break in??
I grabbed my bookbag and took all my heavy textbooks out of it. I ran downstairs prepared to throw them at anyone's head.. I didn't really have any other weapons.
I slowly walked into the kitchen to see a group of boys sitting at the table with Shaun. There was a whole bunch of money on the table and a bag of weed. There was another bag of white stuff that looked kinda like cocaine .. wait shaun does drugs?
" fuck you got this hoe in your crib for bro? what we was doing a 'surprise' train on er? A darkskin boy said causing everyone else except Shaun to laugh
" fuck out of here I'm not a hoe so watch that disrespectful stuff and none of y'all niggas could fuck me even if y'all wanted to. Watch yourself you nut ass nigga. Niggas dead do and say anything for a couple laughs." I snapped
              I walked into my room. It was hot as fuck and I didn't feel like going back downstairs to turn it down because Shaun was still with those rude annoying boys. I just took all my clothes off put on a crop top with some seamless shorts. I took my hair out of the ponytail letting it out . I looked so ratchet right now but I could careless. I took out my homework and began to do it until I heard yelling downstairs.
      " nah man get your bitch in check shaun !" I heard a deep voice talking
" real shit!" The others chanted in
      I heard the door slam and the noise quieted down. I heard stomps coming upstairs next thing I knew my door flew open.
         " stop coming downstairs all the damn time when my bros here. You just made me lose so much money! I was in the middle of business bitch! You must really want them to see you. Bitch, first jay now Louie and all them? Just stay upstairs damn. Running all over my house and Shit. You got hella nerve to say slick shit to my mans Mikey though. You lucky he ain't pistolwhip your little ass. I wasn't gon help you cause we don't play with hoes " he sounded aggravated
       I stared at him like he was stupid. Wasn't this the same nigga eating my pussy last night? the same nigga. now he wanna disrespect me? no nigga I basically fed him! I brushed past him, and was making my way to the steps before he slammed me into the wall.
" what the fuck? Get off me!"
" what's all that shit you was talking? none of us could fuck you even if we wanted to??" he put his hands around my neck and was choking me
" huh?"
        I was slowly losing oxygen but he finally let go I ran into the room and grabbed my bags. I'm not staying with this damn psychopath! I ran downstairs but he was standing at the door
" where you think you going? You messed a nigga up on money and now you staying here to pay. That was my plug now he not fucking with me."
" what did I even do? Move out of the way please "
I pulled my phone out to call 911
He grabbed it and threw it on the floor causing it to shatter he began stomping on it until it wouldn't turn on.

      "Get your ass up here bitch" he spat and dragged me to his room.
" strip"
" what?"
" you heard me strip"
" no"
he minswell kill me now.
He smacked me
" no"
He punched me in my chest
" NO" I said with tears filling my eyes
         Finally he kicked me in the stomach and the pain was too much.. I still wouldn't listen.. I don't want anyone else taking advantage of me!
SMACK
He threw me onto the bed and began pulling all my clothes off. Flashback from not too long ago came back.. can I ever get a break? I screamed, kicked, punched, and slapped him trying to get him off of me.. but he wouldn't stop. His eyes were bloodshot red and his veins looked like they were going to pop out. He looked so angry and all I could think about was the harm being done to me. Next thing I knew he had a gun cocked to my head.. I finally gave in, and let things be how he wanted.. all my fighting and fussing was for nothing, he just thrusted into me. no condom, nothing. The pain was excruciating, but it didn't hurt like when I had my virginity taken. My body moved forcefully as he thrusted in and out of me roughly while grunting. I quietly sobbed each time he stroked.
"fuck" he grunted a few times
         I began to cry loudly while he was still inside of me. He covered my mouth with his hand to shut me up. Soon, I felt a warm liquid shoot up me, and I just knew he had nutted in me. That caused me to cry more.. I'm only 16.. I can't have a kid.. I can't have his kid... he's a —he's a monster.— a stream of tears fell from my eyes as he removed his member from inside of me and went into the shower.. I laid there my body numb. I couldn't even move
        I don't know what happened after that because I blacked out.
                     •          •         •
I thought about my life, and I just didn't understand why me., I put my clothes on and limped to the room door. I turned the knob but he had locked me in. I couldn't jump out of the windows because I would've died, it was too high. I didn't have any other way out. I laid back down and stared at the ceiling.
" dad... please come get me so we can be together again. " I cried and dosed off.
I woke up and ran to the door to see if it was unlocked. I was still locked in. I punched the door attempting to break it. My fingers hurt so bad. Shaun left a note on the door and it read " who knew your pussy was that good.. I purposely busted in you, and don't even attempt to leave you can't open the door anyways , - love Shaun..
I wept. I heard knocks on the door and I couldn't answer. Someone was banging on the door. I heard the door unlock and  I heard someone being slammed into the wall.
    " ohhh fuckkk ugh yes Shaun" i heard Christiana yell from downstairs
          Why does this bitch always gotta be extra? She makes me sick. He makes me sick.😷 they're perfect for each other. I just want to leave!!
            After an hour of hearing her loud ass moans and shit she left and I heard Shaun coming up the steps. He better not think he's going to assault me after he fucked that bitch and he Better not touch me at all!!  He just disgusts me. I wish someone actually cared to see where I was. He unlocked the room the door and I jumped up attempting to run outside but he gripped my waist and threw me against the floor. It's like he just plucked me and I fell. That's how weak I was compared to him.
        " you really one stupid ass bitch. " he spat
           I stared at him and I honestly can't believe I actually thought he was a nice person! 😩 he's fucking horrible!! I tried to pull myself up, but when I was almost up , he kicked me back down and laughed.
" you're a bitch, you wouldn't dare do this shit to niggas your size because you know your bitch ass would've been killed. YOU DEAD ASS A BITCH ASS NIGGA B! " I lost control I was throwing punches all over him.
         This nigga minswell kill me now. I don't give a fuck about nothing right now. Everybody just irritates me, and continually does me wrong. I'm over this life shit. dead serious!
        He picked me up, and smacked me back down for his own amusement. What's the point of keeping me here? Just kill me already and get it over with.
Well kill us.. I know for a fact I'm pregnant.