Enantiodromia (Kellic)

24. Time For The Climax

Kellin POV

I had been selling for Ray for two months now which led to Vic not having to work as much and spending more time making out with me on H and molly. He'd been using heroin a lot lately but I wasnt too worried, he can handle himself. He's been doing this for a long time, he won't screw up and get addicted.

Right now we were making out on on a friday before he had to go to work after school. He had me pushed against the brick wall of the back of the school, grabbing my leg to pull it up and let me wrap it around him. His tongue was feeling all around my mouth and my chest was rising and falling quickly. He's a big rush of adrenaline. I could almost taste the hallucinations from the acid he was on drifting into my mouth, colors and distorted images drifting onto my tongue- he's fucking hot.

Me and vic are an odd thing; We're not dating and we just makeout and do drugs together and its completely normal for us but someone else might find it wierd as fuck. And the thing is, I might have a slightly throbbingly large crush on Vic but I won't let my feelings get in the way of this, I love this so much. This is the excitement that I've always been looking for and I've found it in Vic. Even if my excitment something as lame as getting really fucked up togther and almost fucking, at least im happy.

Vic left for work soon after that and I went to Ray's to buy some meth, I was out and I had work to get done today so I kinda needed it. Well, wanted it. I dont need drugs. Okay, maybe I do. Am I addicted? I just like the rush, and it helps me get things done, but thats not bad, right?

I spent the short walk to Ray's worrying about if I need or want meth but soon he was answering his door and I was walking in hastilly, not wanting to be seen. As soon as I was in he was asking, "Meth? " I nodded.

"I think I also wanna try something new." I decided suddenly out loud. Ray dissapeared into his room of disguised inevntory. Soon he emerged with the familar baggie of my favorite pick-me-up and an unfamiliar sunstance in another.

"Okay, Kellin, meet datura. Datura, met Kellin. Datura can either go one of three ways- horribly boring, terrifying, or pretty cool. You down? I'll let you get it for half price since I like you." He persuaded.

I shrugged. "Sure, how do you make it?"

"Oh yeah, it tastes nasty, you make it into a tea. Ill text you my recipe." He said I began to pull out the money I knew I owed him and handed it to him, grabbing the two baggies, the datura seeds catching my eyes for longer than needed, and then I was on my walk home.

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Vic kept walking across the room and then suddenly dissapearing. It had happened four times now and I was just sitting on the couch watching it. Hes not even supposed to be back from work yet. This time when he reappeared and walked across the room, he had Kurt Cobaine's face. Thia is boring. Datura is boring, I need to spice this up. All that happened is mild hallucinations and the shows on TV seeming wierder than normal, the people sounding and looking different.

So I got up and grabbed a bag of meth, chopping it into lines hastilly and snorting it without even worrying about if its safe to do these two together. After I did some re-search on datura earlier I came to the conlusion that its dangerous as hell and I bet you're not aupposed to mix it with shit. I looked down at the table and realized I had done almost all the lines that I had layed out for the next few days, which was 20 (too much for one dose). I dont even know how but there was a big empty space on the table where lines had been. I ran my hand over the space to make sure I wasn't hallucinating, but this was real. My eyes fell to the ground in worry and only minutes after, so did I. My legs felt too weak to hold me up and my heart was beating so fucking fast, I'd never felt something this insane, everything was spinning so fucking fast, my body was twisting and puslating in wierd ways and places and lights were flashing all around me. My head felt 100 times heavier than normal and I couldn't even lift my hand to my pocket to dial 911.

The last thing I can remember is Vic opening the door and screaming before I passed out.

Vic pov

Worried was an understatement. And so was awkward. I was currently crying in the waiting room along with Kellins mom. I came home to fimd him having a seizure on the floor, his eyes almost rolled into the back of his head. They had to sedate him to even get him in the ambulance. Kellins mom hasn't spoken a word to me or even looked at me. Hell, I wouldnt either.

But this was Kellin's choice, she cant blame me. He wanted in on this life, I let him in. Eveyone knows the dangers of drugs, he knew what he was getting into. He did this at his own risks, they can't blame me.

I was broken from my thoughts when I heard screaming down the hall and ocould tell it was Kellin's voice. I was sprinting to where the sound came from in no time, people yelling at me to get back into the waiting room but I didn't care. I was bursting into Kellin's room where he was red faced, screaming and crying at this same time. When our eyes locked he began to scream words at me.

"You! You! This-this is your fucking fault! I cant move my fucking legs and it's your fault! You fucking good for nothing garbage! You fucking- you fucking let me do this to myself! You dont care about me! Why the fuck are you here? Do feel like you have to be! You don't, you're the reason im here in the first fucking place. If you really fucking cared you wouldn't have let me do this to myself!" Doctors were pushing me out the room, trying to pull me away as kellin screamed at me, he seemed to be done but I couldn't move. I just wanted to dissapear. Kellin's right. This is all my fucking fault and I have no right to be here.

So I left. I ran all the way home, which is a long ass way. Right as I entered the door, I was going to the familiar hidden place where I kept my favorite friend. Soon, with the familar shoelace tired right around my arm, the needle was against my vein and all this shit didnt even matter, none of it even seemed real and I was happy.

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I didn't do any research for this chapter I just winged it. Also, realistically, after Kellin saying all of that in front of people, officers would Probs come search Vic's place but we're gunna disregard that for the sake of the story