Too Young

Deja Vu

It was exactly like when i was 13 years old. My mom stared at me hard.

"John im tired. I dont have the time, but i will give you some time alone with mom" i said walking straight pass him, into my room and locking the door. That was a bold move.

I was sitting there thinking about my encounter with Andrew. I really did have major feelings for him now. He had me feeling a type of way. He came and saved me from that disgusting strip club, but at the same time, i wanted to quit trickin and being a full time dancer. Trickin is too risky, catching diseases or getting pregnant and not know who the dad is. I started making niggas re-wrap halfway through. I have no time for risks.

I really wanted to talk to Andrew and Natalie. I want to know what are me and him and why did he do what he did today. I miss Natalie soo much. I still cant believe we let that bitch catch us slipping.

I went and got in the shower and got dressed and did my hair in there even though I like doing all that in my room instead. I didnt want any interaction with John. Hes sober and is still acting weird.

I went in my room and started studying. I have a bunch of finals this week and then summer! I am soo excited. Im taking my own self to PCB. Maybe might drag Andrew and Natalie along with me.

*phones rings*

ugh.

"hello??"

"now you dont have the time to talk to me?" he asked jokingly.

"oh hey andrew. and im just studying"

"oh well i should just call back later."

"no its good. i need a break. so did you take care of whatever business?"

"yeah i did actually."

"cool"

"whats new?

"ugh, John is back"

"wow i think you should actually leave. hes noo good."

"neither is my mom. I cant trust her either."

"why you say that?"

"all she has let happen… and before my dad left he gave me a letter and told me not to trust her."

"wow. what did the letter say?"

"well thats the thing, he made me promise not to open that letter till i am 18 and i have kept that promise for 7 years."

As i spoke i heard someone shush another person and saw feet shawdows under my door.

"whats new with you?"

"wait dont you wanna talk about this right now? thats kind of weird"

"i… cant"

"well my mom is going to take Natalie to the doctors tomorrow, she thinks shes pregnant she really needs you. On top of that my mom wants to move to Texas with her new boyfriend."

"woah omg my baby is going through it right now. and oh wow do you like the guy?"

"yeah hes realll cool. they have been friends for years soo my whole family knows him, plus my mom got brothers and friends in Texas."

"thats good. so you and natalie are staying?"

"yeah im 19 and im responsible enough to watch out for her and pay bills. Rebekah (his younger sister) is going with my mom."

"oh, thats cool. well i got to get back to studying, bye. i will text you and natalie."

"okay, bye"

I say the feet shadows under my door leave. I crept out of my bed and cracked my door and looked out and they was standing at the top of the stairs.

"what the fuck are we going to do Julie!!!" John whispered shouted.

"just calm down while i think! i cant go to jail for that and you cant either."

"i know. we got too much stuff on our hands. when she leaves, we have to find that letter!"

"okay we will and destroy it. i will go get her for dinner and try to see if she knows anything or suspect anything you go ahead and go back down."

I stood shocked but almost pissed myself when she started coming directly to my door. I pushed it closed slowly and quietly and ran and jumped on my bed and started taking notes. She walked in and looked at me.

"come down for dinner alex" she said slowly.

"okay"

*10 minutes later*

My mom ordered chinese food so i poured mine out of the carton and into a bowel and was drinking my drink when John cleared his throat.

"So how you been?" he asked.

"Im fine."

"school?"

"good"

"cool."

He stared at my mom hard until she said something to me.

"uh hey Alexandra. i think the reason why you are acting out is because you miss your dad. I know that was a tragic day but we should just talk about it. what was yalls last conversation?"

"dont remember"

i shoved food into my mouth so i had time to think before i countinued. They already knew but i wanted them to feel like they were ahead of me, thinking i dont know they know.

"it was 7 years ago, and i dont act out."

"yes you do and i just want to help. I think you should give me all things your dad left you so you can forg-"

"I WILL NEVER FORGET MY DAD" i yelled cutting her off. She jumped back and i could tell i put fear in her.

"how did he die alex?" john asked me, not looking at me but eating his food.

I was stuck. I didnt know how when or where he died, i just knew my aunt Sheryl told me he was dead. I didnt even know where he was burried.

"um…i really dont know…"

He smirked and my mom made a noise of relief.

"i need to finish studying."

I grabbed my food and went upstairs to my room and shut the door and called Andrew. I locked my door and walked in my closet and shut that door to talk to him.

"They heard me on the phone when i was talking about my dad in the letter. I overheard them freaking out cause of the letter and the last conversation i had with my dad. My mom was trying to convince me to give her the letter and she was asking all these questions. John asked me if i knew how he died, and when i said no they both shut up."

"thats soo crazy. you cant ignore this."

"i know. thats why i need your help."