8 Eyes for You

25- My feelings that I can't understand

I never told anyone. That once, I felt unloved by my parents.

It's sad to think that their own kid thinks that. Though, I was wrong.

My parents thought I would do great. I would always...remember they would talk before bed with each other. While we, the children would sleep.

I'm sorry, mom. I made you cry the most.

When I look at you, I don't know what I'm feeling...

But when I think of someone trying to hurt you, I feel like crying and wanting to hurt the other person who damaged you.

That's when I know I love you...

It's been so long since I seen you and I can't remember the last time I said I love you.

But as we know, our actions can say it.

Thank you for teaching me.

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I walked backed with Hyun Oh on my back.

He fell asleep...I can't hold him any longer...

"Hyun Oh...come on, wake up..." I whisper to him.

He groans and licks his lips, "What...what is it?"

"Wake up, I can't hold on to you..." I'm weak as fu....

I put him down slowly and he stands. He has his hand on my back for balance.

So cute...hah...

I turned around and take his hands. I put them on my cheek and warm them up. He forgot his mittens...

"I'm tired..." He yawned. Hahah, he's like a little bunny...

I took a step and leaned in. Hitting my head on his, he bounces back a little. "Mhn...what are you doing?" He got some eye booger already? Pftt, wow.

I bite my lip and whisper, "You're cute, you know that right?"

Hyun Oh's lips are pouting...haha, cuteness overload! Hahaha!!

I intertwine our fingers and swung back and forth.

Hehe, he goes with it since he's so sleepy...

I kissed his forehead.

...damn....memories are kicking in.

Just remembered how I kissed his forehead at the bar.

He wanted...me to lie.

It's kind of sad just thinking he wanted me to lie.

I don't understand.

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He hung onto me the whole time we walked home. I'm kind of glad that we got home before curfew.

I sit him down on the ground and took his shoes off. Pft, he's like a little kid...so cute.

I pat his head, "Okay, you can go to bed now..." I smiled at him.

He nods and takes his glasses off at the temples. He closes them and gives it to me. "Thank you..." His eyes are kind of opened.

I grinned and take it. "Do you want to change?"

He nods. He's so sleepy....

...

I take his coat off, his pants (lol, like I always do) and socks.

I sighed and took my clothes off.