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Chapter 15- Hello Next Year

(Haven't wrote in a while, again, but it's all Kelsey's POV now)

It's November 15. Halloween passed and I pulled off a good Wednesday Addams. Went out with Julia and 2 other friends. It was fun. The fact that I died my hair black for Wednesday Addams is getting old, I kinda want my natural hair back. It's gotten so long as well.

A lot has happened. So much has happened. Angie officially hates my guts, although, I am okay with it. I can't say I hate her back, but I have nerves for her.

Julia and I have been getting closer and it's been making me feel happy and like I am being noticed. Not so long ago, me and her made the decision to start dancing together. It's really fun and distracts my anxiety and panicky moods. Also, realizing she may actually care about me is warming.

I got closer to my best friend Abbi. I mean, me and her have been so close for years, along with Julia. We were a group since 6th grade. Things changed and Julia of course made new friends. But nothing has changed between me and Abbi, except for our attitude and style sense.

Abbi and I are literally best friends. I don't see why I never metioned about my other bestie  Josh as well. Abbi and Josh have literally been there for me through everything last year. Julia too but, I can't believe I never acknowledged them. Guess last year and summer was such a bust that it made me so blind of what I really have.

The beginning of 'Back To School' hasn't started so long ago, but then again, so much has changed. It's still 2016 but I wonder what 2017 will be like.

Julia has a new girlfriend named Brookie. She seems happier with her then I have ever seen her with anyone, not even with me. But hey, at least she's happy and has someone to love as much as they love her.

I may still love Julia. I always will don't get me wrong. But we started on a bad road and I wasn't her type. Things happen. But accepting that she's happier now and we got closer as best friends. That's all that really matters. I'd rather her love me as friends now then pretend to love me in a relationship.

I only have 3 besties. Abbi, Josh, and Julia, and Emily, but I'll get to her later. Honestly. They are the only people I ever need to survive. I have been joyful for the way things are now. I know more is to come and I am scared but hopefully things won't get bad again...

My birthday also passed back on October 12th. So many events have happened ohmy. I am 16 now. Not bad for a Kelsey like me but I'm still waiting on that puberty bus to hit me.

Tomorrow is Wednesday and I'm dying for the week to be over already. Thanksgiving Break is next week and not only am I going to eat a lot and gain probably 45 pounds but something is going to happen. I can feel it. I think it's the 45 pounds speaking my way but, I got bad vibes.

What could possibly go wrong.

I have this friend named Emily too. I would consider her more as family as much as I do with my other 3. I met Emily and she's funny. Short and really immature sometimes. I love it.

I like keeping my group small. Unlike a lot of people with 78 best friends. My life continues. What will happen next makes me nervous and anxious.